hehehe...sorry...

guys..... its stil holiday now right?? so... if you guys msg me, and i didnt reply, know la..... i'm stil holiday... hehe....so.... sorry ar..... <i'm usually very busy at home la.... yup sleeping al the time....>see you guys back at university, k? love you all....

holidays.....hmm.....

well... its a happy thing that holiday is here... but however, after a week.... the "boring" look for me ... sad......~ today is the third day i'm alone at home.... my parent n my two sis go to travel.... Macau, hongkong.... then Melaka..... i guess they really having fun there......haiz......

Mizzzzz...............

these days, dun know y miz the kml life so much....... the life there... all my fren there...think back... its really wonderful..... a great expriences that fill my one year life with laughter and tears.... my tutorial...... i miz them la.... where r u all wo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y no contact de..... ? all my lecturer there..... Mr. Edward, miss jenny, miss siti , miss azza, mr ramdan, mr ronald..... n lots more.... i miz them so much........

anyway back to main topic..... still got 1 more exam to be complete in saturday....... then long holiday will be with me......haha... semester 1 finish juz like that..... hmmm........ semester 2 will meeting us on january 4........ exam finish one by one.... holiday approaching.... ten brothers!!!!!! we will meet after one month++ oh...... hehe..... dun mizz me oh... haha..... coz i wont mizz you guys de... wakakaa......ok... lah... i'm hungry....wan go to eat la......  hehe.........

sleep pig~

what a strange title i put ... haha... but i'm really am... again but... it is not my fault.... you cant blame me for that.....

let me tell you all a story.......once upon a time.... there is a gal..... bla...bla.. bla.... haha... that not a story.... its a real life.... well..i'm admit everyone call me "sleep pig" once i told them i ever sleep for how many hour maximum in my life.... haha.....

yesterday..... ok... this not in the count..... i sleep for 18 hours.... start from 30 october 4pm right until 31 october 10.30am....... that is because i only sleep for 4 hours in two days......this not count la...... haha.......

but there was 1 time.... haha...... i start my sleep time on 8pm in the nite..... woke up in the next day on 3pm..... then go to sleep again on one hour later (4pm), and then woke up on the next day on 10 or 11 o'clock..... wahahaha.....so... as a conclusion, i ever passed a day with 1 hour awake only... haha..... then, in 24 hours, 23 hours is sleeping.... haha.... sound ridiculous?? but that is true...... the total hour i slept that 2 days is 37 hours....37 hours sleep in 48 hours .... haha..... that time.... before.... every nite i hav a gud nite sleep... jz dun know y.... that day i sleep alot.... haha..... but..... when i woke up on the 3rd day..... my head..... totally feel like want to burst!!!!! headache off the limits.... haha... and straight away SICK~~~~~ hahaha............

who wan to challenge me... can tell me la... haha....... haha..

God bless everyone...... i loves you all.......

@@love@@

  arey 

hahah... i'm sorry for that....

haha... it is funny... as i said, writing blog depend on feelz... previous blog article... haha... i wrote too long le.. haha... my friend complain to me...  haha... sorry ar.... hehe.... i juz write out whatever flash through my mind.... bbut it is true whenever i open create post page... my mind is blank.... so i'm not lying... haha...... sorry.... i also shock right after i post it.... haha

luv arey

huh~

lately.... when i open this "create a post" page, my mind is blank and i dun know what to say.... if past, everyday i got a lot of thing to say and write in the blog..

i guess all of this is because university life is getting tougher and tougher....but all of this will come to the end at 16th of november... well, there is one more exhausted month to go.....last week ... in one week dunno how many hour only i touch my bed... yesterday suddenly feel that the world most confortable place is my bed.... haha.. sound ridiculous, right... but it is true.... for 2 or three days i take the floor at the corridor in FIT as my bed..... pity me???? well, no need you all pity lah..... coz... having a tough time in FIT doin MM project, i'm .... no.... not only me.... is WE.... we having a great time... an unforgetable time..... having a fun time....."WE" is refers to shia yok, mei lu, mei hui, me , kian kok, and wei jan..( to know more detail about what happen during the progress of MM project in FIT, refers to wei jan's blog === new exprience).....Mr. jonathan take our picture during the time we "picnic' in fit... made us become famous in two days....... haha... he publish it in lecture time... then shows to every lecturer bout the pic during meeting....die ar...even Mr. Johan saw us also... " hey, i saw u guys pic that taken during u do project at fit, sitting on the floor.."... see.... even Mr. Lau also ask ah gui got any problem with study... pressure.. anything just bcoz he saw us all , our group, ah gui group doing project at fit...sitting on the floor..... if Mr jonathan come to take our photo when we sleeping... then sure.... we become superstar at unimas... hahaha.....however we submit our project and sadly got only grade B+... sad??? yup... quite disappointed..... but after submit the project really make our shoulder feel lighter....the next day of project deadline....its the deadline of programming and math assignment assignment....then... the next day again.... is the presentation of MM project....today is thursday.... then..... on 2moro, is TITAS  project deadline... we are busy.... but then, i'm having a grat time bcoz i got my best friends here... ten bros.... and those who not in ten bros group... hehe..... so glad to meet them, and they are the people that make me always thank God whenever i go to bed..... oh... i forgot... saturday i got exam... maths test.... then have wushu... but me at this time still consider in rest... coz... my right leg is getting painful and more painful until....... dun know le... haiz..yesterday i didnt go wushu too....... at this time... pity me lah... hahaha..... but i'm still ok actually.... i'm quite immune to pain liao....haha....

then... the world best compound is my room... but the world worst place is my houz....oh man.... there is an outsider .. a friend of my houzmate... come to my houz.... open the music as louder as she can....even i close my room door also can listen.... then make the place we brush teeth and wash face dirty by pouring the drink that she dun wan into it...and then just like that.... yesterday.... i blow up again....the music awake me up when i have a sleep yesterday afternoon... i hate when somebody make sound and wake me up....that time... i straight go to that gal laptop and lower down the sound... that gal come behind... that time my face quite black la... i tell her to slow down the sound i go back room again...the next minutes i come out from room... she gone oledi... haha.... so happy ar me...that gal really nonsense.......haiz... why on earth got gals like this on earth....headache..... haiz...

i think i better stop.. haha... at a moment i said when open to create blog and my mind is blank... but at the next moment.... me bla bla bla so long..... haha.....writing blog depend on feelz..... and that is true... haha......

bye.. gtg.... God bless....

luv*** arey...

Never like this......

in my life....
never feel like this before...
cry because of bad result is wat i usually do...
but then, yesterday......
it is awful.....
i cried because i'm so stress up with study and assignment and project....
in the other hand, i had a serious headache...... maybe not enaf slp....
this is the first time i cry because of so stress up in the study........
so helpless........argh........

blur...

He is far from me...

make me feel more and more dizzy and blur each day....

so helpless....

everyone is stress...

i'm also one of them....

i wana crazy oledi.....

Hope that He be at my side now...

so that i'm not blur so much...

argh......

May God be at my side and be with everyone.....bless!

Luv arey......

all my friends....

all my beloved friends.... no matter u r in unimas or in form six.... :

for unimas ten bros... and all course mate.... these days will be tougher and tougher ... until 17 october.... so ... this two week... we all must gambateh and struggle.... after 17 oct... or maybe 18 october... sleep one whole day... after that start battle between exam and us.... so Struggle....!!!!!!!!

For my beloved friends who in form 6, stpm is juz around the corner... so study hard... after ur exam ... we can go damai to crazy again... ok.....! promise me to study hard..... dun be like me.... suffer rite now... study hard to get a good result and get a good course in university....... i miss u guys so much... i love u all..... all the best and may God bless u all......

It really blow me up!!!!

S**T!!!!!!!! what inside their head!!!!!!! S**T!!!!how dare she make my toilet dirty after made the toilet that she usually use dirty up to maximum point until nobody dare to go in....Now, is the toilet i usually use.... she really want me to slap her..... this morning brushing my teeth.... the sink.... whole sink....... all her hair.... i really want to help her to cabut all her hair!!!!!!i already be very patient and not to care about her.... but SHE MESS UP WITH ME!!!!!!!this is the second time i become very extremely angry since july...... i really wan to slap her.... tonite.... no way i want to talk to her... if she didnt wash the toilet... she better bkful... i will not forget it easily!!!!!! D**M.....everyday the indian song playing loud like market!!!!

i made a decision already... i will move out of that room next sem... possible same apartment with shia yok... if u wan me to stay in that kind of room for another sem.... totally you wan me to die!!!!!!!!!!!

Problem.....

each and everyday, we take one step closer to our final exam, one step closer to our sem break.... everything passed by just like that.... one more month or one month ++ final exam will fill our day up....  however, assignments still take most of our time... how to study like this.... i have a bad result in programming, ca, every subject.... but it doesn't seem like i'm really sad with everything.... what's happen to me ?

this sunday goin out for buffet.... and i'm very sure... i will eat alot to release my tension and my pressure.....i try to finish up my programming assignment that released yesterday by this sunday, same with math assignment 4...... for the project, programming... everthing under control. for MM.... still abit blur with it.... i'm waiting for the ca assignment... and math assignment 5.i want to finish it as fast as i can... Hope God Will Be At My Side All The Time....... sound like i'm goin to die.... well, i am..... the " pressure " is killing me now.....

registration for semester 2 courses already started today...... it will totally make my brain twisted juz because of this problem......i have been through a bad exprience in registrater courses in sem one..... one more thing..... pelengkap??? what should i take....tourism or music.... good thing about music is.... yes, it is my interest, then it is near(at new campus). then tourism... is my interest too.... but however... with the 17 credit timetable( not yt plus pelengkap) in the second sem.... i dun think we have the time to rush to old campus juz for the tourism class..... tourism class maybe be very fun.....but i have to think twice......or should i say think very cook-cook.... hehe......

i'm starting to get addicted to this word " Ceh~"... i think it is cute la..... haha....

ok lah... have to stop now .... May God Bless Everyone... God Loves Us All....... i love you all too....bye....

houzmate = headache

what should i say... i totally angry this morning... ( one of the reason is didnt sleep well)...think back yeasterday nite... when i want to throw rubbish..... i discover my shoes... gone... who wore.. of coz that gurl la.... there is once she asked, i let her wore... but then.... after that time.... she will wear it whenever she go without asking like the shoes was hers!!!.... S**T..... what the hell she thinking..!!! last nite i have no shoes to wear....Damn..... make me very angry this morning... plus up.... that gurl wear people shoes without asking and.... even my roomate shoes also gone.... she have a lot of shoes.... and ruiun  pidah's iron~ crazy.....  then , go to sinki there.... rubbish bag full of unfinished dishes that caused unpleasant smell in the whole houz..... what the hell are they thinking..... rubbish bin outside the houz , why they dont want to throw it outside!!!!! Went to toilet also dun wan to flush!!!! make the whole houz smelly like shit!!! the shoes issue... this morning i almost want to scold everyone in the houz!!!! i almost want to burst into pieces live in that houz!!!!! but then i wrote a note put it in front my shoes... " do not wear my shoes without my permission, because when you wear it without asking... that is very rude!!!!" i'm so angry with them!!!!!!

so everyday , i stay quiet and lock myself in room.... i rather be alone in that houz.....i didnt talk lot since holiday....when they ask, i answer.... if not i wont talking.... except to my roomate and pidah.... i dun like my houz.... i scared of everyone of them!!!!!

Dun wear my shoes again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aRgH~~~~~~

sometimes....

sometimes, somewhere in unimas... i feel so touched on everything  around me... especially ten bros and all the person i know(coursemates).... this is the third month in unimas... and yes, you can find out everyone are so friendly and sweet....i'm so amazed and so touched..... maybe busy life in the faculty isnt a bad thing  or maybe it is a great thing... because... whenever you walk around in unimas... you meet a coursemate that you dont even know her name, and she didnt even know your name... but at least a "hi" ,a " bye bye" and asking where does she going are the conversation when we met.... i'm so suprise with that...everyone are so friendly here actually......

whatever then..... thanks for everything

i found out no metter how sad i am , the next day i'm able to smile again..... can this be count courage or crazy......? yesterday nite... yes... i was very scared.... and miserable.....i dun know what happen to me.... until i cant finish my data com draft.... i'm so sad with myself.... imagine a piece of cloth was all wet in one hour....i duno how many pearl i throw away juz like that because of them.... they cant feel it.. they dun even know it.......i did it again this morning in the mm lecture in front of shia yok..... all the feels come whenever they want... and then all the pearls fall off one by one..... how i wish this thing never happen to me....

but my friends... thanks for everything.... especially that person ( hehe) ... who accompany me talking last nite when i was so down....and felt unsecure towards my life.... thank4 for every1,kian kok, shia yok, wei jan... everyone.... thanks.... because of u guys, i manage to smile today........ ping~ ping~ ping~ ping~ ( Thanks alot for that)....... hahaha.....

_this......

我爱的人   (by 陈小春)

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了他的人生
成家立业之类的等等
他做了他觉得对的选择
我只好祝福他真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
他心里每一寸都属于另一个人
他真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨他的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人他已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见他或她说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声............T_T

................

it is horrible this morning....  my eyes... i dun dare to see my eyes... i never thought i will[.......] so hard after think back ...........the incident really break me down....i duno what to say.... that song...., its that song make me feel horrible......i hate myself

ok... i'm fine.... ok... i'm lied....

hey..... life... i'm fine.. i'm still facing it... argh~~~~

ok... i admit it ... i'd lied.... exam is killing me.... argh~~~~~ my headache is killing me.... and very sure that FIT is killing everyone of us.....all the assignments, project... deadline in this n next week.... then exam in this week again.... what are they thinking......

everything bek to normal for my "feelz".... i guess life isnt that bad...... i dun know..... coz tears filling the eyes isnt a good thing to happen....... put smile on face is the best thing ..... hopefully..... life n emotion getting much more better next week...... i'm stress out this week... i ate alot.... alot~~~~~~ more than kian kok, weijan ......... imagine that... haiz..... later i will eat myself up.....

hahahaha.......... bbye... i love u all......

God Bless....

that is nice.....or maybe not....

everything gonna be fine after tomorrow... i know that.... although i know i never walk out from the space where covered the dark image.... but at least i never let my soul to go in deeper... i loves myself...and i know God loves me...the sadness that put on me on march and april will never leave me alone... i know they always accompany me...until the day i die or... the day i really lost my emotion.... Maybe that can be count courage that i still alive n facing them.... maybe.....or maybe will become worst i guess....until now, i havent climb back to the place where i fell down.... it takes time.... a lot time... months or years.... or even a decade.....or a century or a millennium.... whereby i left the world oledi.... these days i keep thinking the previous memory.... i think this is due to i just met them... i dun know when i will let it go.... that memory did not curved in my heart but it break my heart in pieces... millions of pieces... billions n trillions of pieces.... i know it cannot be glue back to it shape...  i hate that me myself very weak inside.... feel so sorry to my soul.... i'm sad and God knows y......

that all for today... today i'm goin to write my diary when i'm back... hehe....long time i didnt write my diary because i dun wan to record down all the sad thing that happen to me.... i know it will be miserable......but however, i've change my mind....

bye.. lots of hugs n kisses..........

I 'm always believe that GOD loves me.......

Yes, i'm still believe that.... God loves everyone, that's y i put on my smile everyday on my face no metter how tired, how scared, how sad i am...Every obstacles brings courage, but now, i dun know wat to say...that things that happen to me in march n april brings " dark image" to me. brings " sorrowful memory " to me which i dun have the courage to look back.....and makes me never want to step into that place again..... That place, i hate most..... Everyone tell me that i'm stupid, or maybe i really am..But what to do, i have to lie to myself to make everyone forget that miserable memory and be happy again. But then, i never thought of myself whether i did it wrong o right??? I realized one day, I have betrayed myself and betrayed my own feeling. Everyone is happy, except me, until now and i never happy when i think of it. This is a HORRIBLE BETRAYED!!!! This sadness n that march-april incident brings the feeling of " scare" into my life, and brings the words" Lost belief" in ........That day i cried again after a long period of time and yes, i cried alone too.I doesn't like what we seen in the movie. I guess, If that person doesn't went through on what i had went through, I think that person will never understand what am i thinking n my feeling forever because it is complicated . I have made a conclusion, i better be sad alone. I'm scared now, I'm thinking alot with the facts around me, billions and trillions of " MAYBE" i will think and i will choose the worst " MAYBE" that might be happen.

Maybe i look happy go lucky and tough outside, I'm totally wrecked inside.there are many many pieces left at the bottom of it, and it havent glued back. All this time, LIES ia wat i'm telling myself, then i  realize that i really cant stand all the lies already. I never been so scared and unsecure before.But then, i prefer to be alone on my own feeling, i wont shared my sadness with any other people else more. if i do sharing, it will hurt me more.Everything, i keep it for myself. However, i think i not selfish enough coz i still sharing my happiness with my friends..( knowing all my friends, it is a wonderful thing in the world)... sorry i have to say, you guys maybe did not know me well..... and that , i keep it for myself. It's not necessary to tell, to announce, and to share coz me myself very scared to tell and to share. i dun want the past happen on me again in the future....i dun have anybody to hit the wall together(no one will do the stupid thing that i'm doing), yell together with me, cry together, tear pic together, throwing things together, nobody will do that with me... coz i know it stupid... and crazy too....i'll do that when i'm totally down totally feel like lifeless....and extremely over stress....i'm telling the truth, the person who will do all this things with me, that kind of person... i met once in my life only.....She is in Penang now.... a friend who treat me like treathen herself... i knew her since kindergarden... How i wish she is beside me now.....i'm sorry i have to say this.... but she really mean alot to me.... Forget bout it however, I'm keeping every little sadness for my own, hoping that i'm not selfish n greedy for doing that.....I'm sorry guys.... i think this is the reason why i eat alot this week, eating non stop....i think it is because i'm very stress from the inside now... Committed suicide is no more a way for me to walk.... although i never try... i had the thinking ...I loves myself now....so i wont let myself hurt again....But then, no metter what, i think i'm stupid, that's all.......and that is what my roomate tell.. and i just smile.... i rather being stupid than being too over smart.....

Whatever, i know, God still loves me, that's y i still manage to love myself, just that i felt so sorry for my soul.....

This is the first time i write blog tat saying " No comment needed".... Special huh? haha.......

I loves everyone , God loves you all too bye... loves and kisses....

whatever.....

life have been bad after holiday.........what have happen...?

sad sad sad......

i'm sick now......

i thought life will be better.... but i did the wrongs again and again.... i'm so dissapointed with myself...

very dissapointed..........

jay new song lyric...

千里之外  词：方文山  曲：周杰伦

屋簷如悬崖  风铃如沧海  我等燕归来
时间被安排  演一场意外  妳悄然走开

故事在城外  浓雾散不开  看不清对白
你听不出来  风声不存在  是我在感慨

梦醒来  是谁在窗台  把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来  经不起谁来拆

我送你离开  千里之外  你无声黑白
沉默年代  或许不该  太遥远的相爱

我送你离开  天涯之外  你是否还在
琴声何来  生死难猜  用一生  去等待

闻泪声入林  寻梨花白  只得一行  青苔
天在山之外  雨落花台  我两鬢斑白
闻泪声入林  寻梨花白  只得一行  青苔
天在山之外  雨落花台  我等妳来

一身琉璃白  透明著尘埃  妳无瑕的爱
你从雨中来  诗化了悲哀  我淋湿现在

芙蓉水面採  船行影犹在  你却不回来
被岁月覆盖  妳说的花开  过去成空白

梦醒来  是谁在窗台  把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来  经不起谁来拆

我送妳离开  千里之外  妳无声黑白
沉默年代  或许不该  太遥远的相爱

我送妳离开  天涯之外  妳是否还在
琴声何来  生死难猜  用一生  去等待

haiz......

headache now..... so sleepy... i still have programming proposal n titas havent finish.........2nite no sleep liao ....sure 2moro headache.... haiz..... life havent been better since last week.... or maybe i should say it is getting worst.... haiz.... i dunno la... i need a rest.... but after these two days..... then... i can take a real rest...... garfield.... snail..... teng teng..... kc...... ah zha...bong li..... curry...... ah liang....... hui ying....... ting ting....... jelly......i miss u guys so much~~~~~~~ meet u guys on saturday~~~~~~ i miss you guys so much..... i'm friendsick oledi... haiz..........

holidays... i'm waiting for you.....

holidays..... approaching........Yeah~ life will tough after holidays.... mid term exam follows up...... argh......how i'm goin to enjoy my holidays..... this two days i think i didnt sleep liao lo... just to finish up my assignments as fast as possible.... then during the break.... movies willl fill my days up..... then.... i have to study lar.........exam.... math got two exam... mm gt exam, titas, data com, ca again.... the project deadline......argh~~~ =( life aint easy..........university life is tough........ no wonder so many people commited suicide..... haiz..... i try my best not to let my parent down la..... wish me luck.....i know that myself starting to get lazy .... haiz...... i hates myself ar...... haiz...... God Bless everyone...... i loves you all... and i loves my family more..... peace..... hugs and kisses..... aReY*

life~life~life~

so boring now..... and i am very sleepy.... very very very extremely sleepy.... but im lazy to walk back to my apartment....then i feel so boring ... i duno what is my purpose sitting in the general lab here online... i'm directionless....... five more days i will go back home..... and i have to move my pc back home....holidays approaching but the assignmentssssssss...... one by one adding up to my shoulder.... at here life although happy but very stress..........wonder y we have to study ..... haiz.....

oh yeah.... i lost my both rings... very very sad...... that two rings means alot to me... one of the ring be at side already 2 years which i brought it using my first salary of my life....... then the second.... i brought it at labuan as a new year present for myself on the 1st january 2006..... both of them be at my side already long period of time.... suddenly both of them gone just like that..... VERY SAD!!!!!! i want to buy new one....... or maybe i buy two....haiz...... if that day i didnt take it off then it wont gone ......so regret....so careless....... even if i buy the two new rings.... the meaning wont be the same........=(

life got happy moment and sad moment..... and i dunno that whether i am happy now or sad now.....if i said i happy now... that would be a lie coz i just lost my rings.... but if i said that i am very sad now... that also would be a lie...because i am quite happy now... n very relax after get use to the life here..... i'm totally a strange person.... haiz..... God loves me ... i know that..... be tough..... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i loves everyone... and i loves my family more, as usual.....=)

have a nice day n nice weekday .....

holiday approaching.... guys ... happy holidays..... dun waste ur time during the holidays.......

May God Bless You All..........

huh~

wow....... yesterday went for a movie with friends...."Fragile".... man! the boring part in the front part of the movie made me totally freak out at the end of the movie...i really cant imagine the end of the story will be like that.... huh~ sweating ar watch that movie......no lah... i'm not sweating la.... only shaking.... it was very cold inside...... but i'm having a nice time yesterday.....

Continue~

continue the story that i havent finish... on saturday..... we have our exam , discrete math..... i think i managed to do well in that exam.... hehe.... coz sleep for the whole nite and didnt study.. hehe.... after that.... we got lecture  in old campus.... in the lecture time... i confess that i didnt pay attention.... hehe..... so sleepy that time....after the lecture... we whole group went to pc fair...and then when to shopping , went to eat... and the last one ... went to kuching festival... food fair......!!!!!!haha.... so happy ar that nite..... im having a great time.....

well that was last week oledi.... today got my exam paper... the programming de.... hehe... i got 8 out of 10.... so happy..... coz this paper i sleep also.... hehe..... wahahaha...........but then i can feel that something bugging me in my heart..... and that makes me always stiff in watever i do..... im so tired thinking that problem...... oh God ... help me.... im not sure with the answer in my heart.... could that be the most serious prob that i have to face before mid sem break....i dun want that prob to bugging me again and my whole life..... sometimes me myself finding a hard prob to my ownself to solve....well, i know.... life isnt easy as everyone think... it fills with torns.....and the torns is on my body now.... i dun want that exprience come back to my life again.... and i hates that kind of life.....and nobody knows that...... torns are killing me....God ... plz bless me with my life now.... Dont bring us to temptation but delivery us from evil....... God... help me to solve this problem now.... because i loves my life now......i loves everyone but i love my family more.... may God bless everyone of us...Hoping thing will get much more better after this week....

Busy life ends....

Last wednesday start...the day of human n assignment battle... i mean FIT student battle with the assignments...then... start on saturday... student FIT face another tough battle... between human and exam....until today... the battle finally will face the end...reporting the last week horror time... after passing up the prolog assignment( for now.. we consider the most easy assignment ever), we face our Data com assignment( the hardest assignment) and our programing assignment..... Data com... i spend two sleepless night to do the assignment and i dun even have time to online to check my mail... start from wed... nightmare started where i dun have the good time to sleep, i dun have time to comb my hair to go the lecture... "fishing" in the lecture time...but however ... i'm still eating well...i'm still very healthy...wed onwards.... i can be considered no sleep at all.... me working hard... as well as my computer .. pity my wife ( refers to my computer eh...)....i cant even finish it till the next day... but then ... i started my programming assignment( which released quite late..)programming was stil ok... coz... quite easy...that thursday afternoon... i got my new cpu...intel pentium duo core 3.4 ghz... wahaha... back to the story juz now... thursday nite... after i replace my old cpu to my new cpu.... its takes 2 hours... include installing all the software like C++...and my printer.after finish my data com assignment and print it out... i start my programming assignment thta time already 12am.... haha... the next day.... have to pass up at 4.00pm.... me n mei hui escape class for the first time ,we finish and then print out at 3.45pm( this is no lie... it the real life exprience).. did not shut down the pc n rush to the lecturer office... like explore race... hahah....i continue after this.. heehee.. i got exam now...

~~~~busy~~~~

this week, probably the most busy week ever..... i have to pass up 3 assignment... however,i just pass up one.... but then... if plus up all the thing that i have to pass up till in the short time, i got 6 assignments n two project have to be finish before mid break.....haiz.. wish me luck....

~~hmm~~~~

tests approaching .... assignment deadline approaching... i still spend my day in general lab online... God~~~ who can help me to stay quiet in room studying??

that day our block level, i mean in the kolej.....got guy coming up to this restricted place..... making the "pengetua" n felo very worry bout our safety.... on that particular nite too.... my houzmate feel that one of my houzmate acting n looking strange.... n we believe got "something" following her... she keep saying that her faculty got that "thing".. n she saw alot..... she ask my other houzmate to hav a look to her faculty too in the midnite.... then... after 3am... bout 4am ... then she sleep ..... my houzmates were very scared... but me n my roomate sleep like a pig that nite.... and it s come out a bit confrontation in our houz... but we all stay quiet only... what to do??? everything will pass.....

dunno y me very tired this few days... even i went to the most interesting class...BM...i felt very sleepy..... i need a good rest tomorrow... ya... i hav 3 class only ....... i will spend my time at the bed.... then go to class wushu again...... n go shopping again... haha.. and i doesnt seem like resting myself.....i'm a strange person... hehe......

back to the main topic... test...n.. assignment....next week have to pass up all....anyone willing to help me to do all??? hahah.... impossible la...... i'm totally busy ar.......but i'm starting to love my life here....... haha... cause ptptn out today..... i want to buy a new cpu, new handphone(motorola L7), adidas bag, everything.... i want to buy the world....... my God~ RM XXXX/- enaf to buy what... haiz...... enaf to eat that i know... enaf to buy book lor.... buy book better la... and cpu very important too.... so, i buy book and cpu... if got extra $$ then i buy handphone.....

anyway..... long time i didnt update my blog (long time???juz few days nia..haha) whatever la.... haha... i'm so happy that my oversea friends got read my blog... so all this blog not meaningless lor... haha........ left some comment bout my blog lo... either it is ugly ... meaningless... crazy ... all i will accept.. hehe...

have a nice day everyone..........i love u all... and i love my family more... hehehe 

YeAh~~~~~~~

still remember that i mentioned before i have two exam?? the UPIT n the math exam???

i PASS BOTH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

so i dun have to take the UPIT course again... save my time... i dun take the subject exam in final... so i can focus on other subject....the math exam.... i pass it and i dun have to take the mathematic booster program... so save my time again...... hahaah........ thank GOD~~~~~~ i love everyone~~~~~~...

Lesson behind this blog.... study before goin to university... especially on the form 5 subject.. but then, i didnt study for my math... haha.....depend on own luck la.... may GOD bless.......

Wushu~

hihi... i'm bek again.... haha ...

haha... before this.. since secondary, i was very hoping to join the taekwondo...i thought i will take it during the time in matriculation.. but then , unfortunately , there dun have the taekwondo club..so i joined the basketball club.....

at unimas here....i promise myself to join the taekwondo club....haha.. but then yesterday... me n meihui went in the wushu club... hehe... interesting....i quite like the training....but then ... at first we didnt know that we got training... thought only registration....so me, mh, and my friends wearing jeans.. hhaha.... imagine we doing front kick, side kick, every kicks... haha..... even the trainer laugh at us......then goin bek to west campus... straight go to meeting for college.. coz the seniors select the college ajk... hehe.....and my whole houz...all go to join the exco.... haha... turns out my houz got 1 exco, 6 assistances of exco...1 is block A 3rd floor leader.....haha.... for the exco, all become the member of protocol and "tugas-tugas khas" unit... hhaha... interesting.... then my senior get my name for the PERTEKMA..... so confirm i can stay in the college next year... hopefully.... hehe.....

lately, i feel so tired.... went out from houz in 8 am everyday.... rush to class ... rush to east campus....everywhere.... and went home 10pm at night .... everyday like that....and i think that this is my life for 3 years..... i have to face it anyway.....

struggle of anugerah dekan.... hopefully....

We Went to Beach.....

On 22 july.... our FIT faculty had a special activity... called Hari Mentor-Mentee... and all the faculty students went to Pantai Pasir Panjang(i'm hope that the name is the right one)... at first... ok... that beach i went there 4 several time already.... nothing special for me... haiz... it's kinda boring i think.... hhaha.....but then... i quite fun la.... thanks to PERTEKMA .. hopefully i can join n be one of the ajk of PERTEKMA..hehe....

my second sis is bek~~~~ on the evening of 22 july....on that particular nite.... all my family members gather have dinner together... a day before , my dad hurd his leg and cant walk... and its getting better that nite... we go have dinner .... its also due to my mom birthday too.... she very happy..... all of her daughters come bek at the same time... of coz happy... usually if want to gether together .. have to wait till chinese new year... me very happy too that nite....very happy... my elder sis bek to KL the next day.... many of my closed relatives come to my house .... haha... that's why my pap said yesterday like chinese new year.... haha..

i'm very happy... hehe....

Today~

what a normal day.... haha.....

today having my UPIT exam(an exam that all the first year student to take so can skip the TMX 1010 end user Program(basic knowlegde of computer la) if pass)...so yesterday start from 11 pm i started to study til this morning 3.30am... li hai leh.... haha.... study the 9 chapters in one nite... then this morning 10am.... i had my UPIT exam.... at least some of the questions i still can answer....hopefully i can pass the exam n skip this subject n during the final exam can less one subject.... hopefully lo... may GOD bless....

today is the second time i online .......and i confess ... i really dun know what should i do now... online blindly..... haiz... can somebody tell me the websites for comics n download movies?????????

TiReD~~~~~

what a tired day yesterday... today more free time.....i have two class only today... yesterday.... rushing here n there juz for the registration for the english preparatory class ...... n all the slots offered are full... so i have to take it next sem....haiz..... me and mei hui went to ppb ( pusat pengajian bahasa) there.... i takes 15 minutes to walk from our faculty.....what a long way.........

Our programming project released yesterday... n we have to pass up on november.....what a tough project, whereby... for the 1st year learner ... we have to program a software....hey.. we know nothing.... haiz.. yesterday headache one whole day.....but then... we able to get the project title.... n we are working on it.....wish me luck......

anyway... beside than all the person i met yesterday.... i feel thankful to Dr. Ting n her personal assistant.thanks.......

i'm sick n tired now...... dunno y... i still headache......i will taking a long nap this afternoon......

i think most of u feel annoying heh? coz everyday keep updating my blog... and ur email box is full with friendster admin messages..... haha.....for most of u lah.. hehe.. sorry.. no one can stop me from online... like i say before... i addicted.... sorry..........

may God Bless....

wahahaha.......i lurv....internet...

i'm start addicted to computer n internet...... everyday at least 2 hours spending time in general lab in fsktm juz to online......i'm addicted .... either blog or download song.... haha..... everyday juz internet......haha.... soon or later, i will looking like COMPUTER... dun shock when c me ...haha

HomeSick nei~

Yesterday juz came bek to sakura college after went to home on friday nite....on friday nite.... after fetching me from college.. me n my family went out for a dinner at jalan song.... after that when reach home .. watch amazing race with my mom n my sis.....

the next day... i went out to Wisma Saberkas with mei hui.....searching and visit every computer shop to buy my handydrive..... having a nice day out..... hehe....that nite... went out for "limteh" at 9 miles..... then went to hh houz .... i was sick.... very sick that time.. haiz... ..til 2am then we goin bek to own houz....... me cant sing that time... so.... went to hh room watching them play games or more friendly to say... kill people... haha...after that.. reading newspaper at the dining hall.... haha..... they said me strange de.. hehe......

on sunday morning.... woke up at 11 am.... then watching conan with my sis.... i lost my voice.. argh.. miserable~~~~~~haiz... then til 2 pm... me , my mom, n my sis... went to airport to fetch my big sis.... hehe...so happy to c her........in the evening... went out to buy my houzmate thing.. then... went for dinner n came bek to college....

in this morning.... almost late to class... but still can attended the multimedia class.... then... i'm started to homesick n "best friends sick" now......haiz... i miz them so much........ haiz.... i'm thinking of goin bek home.... hangging out with my friends n family....haiz....... haiz.... haiz x1000.......

thinking of watching the movie "Pirates Of The Carribean 2"... i keep telling people the movie really nice n extremely nice... haha.. but i havent watch it.. hehe......c lah... i will ask my friends to go with me.. ..... i wanna watch that  movie~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sleepy......

i'm goin home today..... yeah..... left home for 2 weeks... suddenly i miss home so much.... i wonder how i pass those days in labuan matriculation college before... lived there for three months........and went home... and then went back to labuan again.... haiz.... but sure i miz those moment alot....

today....listen quietly to the "data communication and network" lecture.... oh man.. the lecture hall are colder than the weather in Genting .....and i think even the fridge......COLD~ ......and that make me feel sleepy.... haiz.... jz now..... went to the "computer architecture " lecture... i got bring along another long sleeve shirt...... its feel much better....

The "assignment" word is filling up my head...... and my BRAIN~~~~~~ argh... tonnes and tonnes assignment i have finish up before mid term........ projects(especially the programming project)..... all the tutorial, lab teaching slot... slowly.....slowly... filling up the time in my weekday......i got one day have to go to class that start 7.30pm til 9.30pm... scary???... haha... i'm getting crazy....

but then... i'm starting to get used to the life here.... my roommate.. my houzmate.... juz that... because of some "technical problem" by the college... one of my houzmate hav to move out from our houz.... i'm very sad.... my heart was blaming the college actually.... coz we started to get along very well together... suddenly have to move...if not mistaken ... a senior will be moving in... who cares those senior actually....haiz... we cant get along well either.... sad........ sad make me sleepy....... ~ haiz....

again...and again.... but this is the first time....!!

i've been searching... searching... serching.... from the first week til now.....and still i can't found it.... what a sad story.....until 5 pm yesterday..... when me having dinner with mei hui... finally.... what i have searching for all these day.... i found it... haha... know what i'm searching for?haha... leng zai lor....haha... finally i saw one yesterday....very leng zai....very smart .... wearing tie.... haha........ very tall..... chinese....

but all these not a big deal....coz.... a gal looking at a leng zai is a usual thing ma....but what make me feel irritating is.... a guy call me through public phone to my hp.. and talking non-stop bout an hour.....that happen yesterday too... bout 10pm like that.....and the phone call ended saying he will call again.... Oh My God~~ help me....... throughout the call.... i didnt say much.... just...that... he talk non-stop......argh~ ..... who give my hp no. to him!!!???!!!....

i hate people calling through my phone... except my own best friends n family members..someone i dunno, excuse me~.....calling to my no., n ask... are u angie? then said his own name n asking what am i doin.... then saying me doesnt know him.... Oh..MAN??? what are u guys thinking? i didnt know you... then y u are calling?????better call someone u love or ur friend or ur family members than calling a person u never meet....y have to spent the credit n money ??? i just dun understand ..... haiz...... this world is strange... because the emotion takes over the world!!! but then ... at least i still can look for friends in web like frienster.. but phone....no way..... :(

hello..... I'm busy.....

this is only the first week for the university life.... start our lectures.... next week start our tutorial and lab teaching slots.... my life...... oh my GOD... i wish i have 30 hours a day.....with all the computer logic... programming.... multimedia.... discrete math..... argh.... its drive me crazy.... arrange for the tutorial class make me misery....... but i have to do it.... people said... UNIVERSITY LIFE IS FUN.... but is tough for me.... 7 subjects , 14 assignments one semester, 7 project a semester........ my GOD.......i dun have enough time.... i change my mind.. i wan 48 hours a day.......thinking of goin bek to secondary school to study...... today have our math test..... i just try my best.... me didn't do any revision before goin to the test room... then yesterday, the first class..... then the first quiz..... with the question , "what is syntax , ......, run-time error mean?" my god...again... how do i know... i never been to a computer class before...... another thing..... y the weather so hot here.... i was like in the oven here..... haiz.... my GOD...

the junior life.... in university

whenever register in a new school, college, campus..... the first week sure is the orientation week..... the college i'm staying currently is the sakura college.....where the room is small, bathroom is small, toilet is small, living room is small, cabinet is small, store room is small, balconi is small... everything is SMALL.....u know the reason y??? haha... according to our senior....this new college is based on the design of JAPAN...... that's y named...SAKURA....n that's y the college is small... ok... stop all the college thing.... every seniors said this batch is the luckiest batch ever... cozz...... living in the new campus.... formerly known as Kampus Barat.......all the teaching facilities all new..... especially the faculty of computer science n information technology.... inside this faculty.. got 600 all new computers.....2 for each FCSIT student......we fcsit can visit the computer lab whenever they have time.... can count that the special offer la...........ok... stop all the faculty.... start for the orientation week.... start from 4 july to 8 july..... fun ... tired.... dun have time to wash clothes....knowing all new friends.... haha... got leng lui... but no ... leng zai... hahah... i mean.... i know alot of leng lui... but dun even know a leng zai at all.......so sad..... haha.....the food are not tasty.... haha....but still eat also... wakaka..... but this is the most happiest orientation week i attended  before..........only the sakura knows why... haha.......other people laying on the road rolling......we having fun here..... haha... very fun......

to be continued~   

The New Life Begin....... Again..!!!

Its 6.30am morning ... one more hour, i'll be a university student.....last nite, i'm packing till this early morning, i've take a deep think on my life.... i've walk a long way...... happiness, sadness, confused, amazed , surprise... all the feeling came and bothering me......from a "nothing", "simple","everybody look down " family until now...3 successful daughters.... elder working in hospital univesiti malaya, kl.....second currently studying medic in ukm for the second year....and the third one... that's me... who will bestep into universiti in one hour more..... my tears filling my eyes now....i dun know it is tears of happiness or what....although the course i'm taking now not as good as medic that can make people feel "WOW" ... but i will try my best ......

~Never care people look down on us..... as long as we walk on our own road.... we will reach our destination~

The laughter of life 05/06

Actually i dun really remember what had happen during the orientation week..... all i know are.... wake up early, with the moral talk in early 4am morning....then... sport, LDK activities, when have a gap in between all the programmes... all of the students had to go bek hostel to get a quick change in clothes....haha..... queue for the bathroom.... i'm not queue for the bathroom.... coz.... try to save my time to rest.... i sleep in room... haha.... then i take bath late at nite bout 2am like that....... i'm a sleep pig.... coz.... during the morning moral talk... i sleep..... and sleep.... wahaha.... i sat like a turtle that time... coz all the student sat at the floor... so.... impossible laying down on the floor.... so ... i think u can imagine how i sleep without letting anyone know.... haha....back to the identity card topic.... haha.... that morning ... i sat down... preparing to sleep at the hall.. the morning talk is bout to start.... ... i found that my temporary matric card GONE~~~~.. i step out to tell a lecturer... and the lecturer look so serious.... he asked:" is this yours?".... yeah... its mine... then... he asked to wait...he took out his wallet.....i thought he gonna fine me... i was so scared that time.......haha... guess wat... he took out my identity card... ahhaha......

the orientation week ended was the happiest thing .....and start our lectures... tutorial.... everything.....everything start to settle down n me get used to life there......

Goin to lectures... sure is the new exprience for everyone .... having class with 200++ people... wow...... tutorial.... 20++person only... wat a big different......after lectures.... got tutorial.... after all this.. got exam, semester exam, mid-semester exam... until one year life passed juz like that.... no enaf money to eat... unfininshed homework.... breaking the rules....eating maggi for weeks....haha... all just memories... all the friends, tutorial's, lecture's fren..... seem like a dream........all the lecturers...... Mr. Edward, Miss jenny, Miss Siti, .... etc... all the tears n laugh....... wat curved deep inside me... is the laughter that 3.21 left in that room... 3.21 is the special room where laughter is the most, tears is the least, recieve complains everyday....."3.21 too noisy"... we left the memory there hoping the juniors will feel the happiness we had before.....

we left 3.21, block B karisma, kml,labuan with tears n hugs... hoping that we can turn bek time to appreciate all the people beside us..... but no... is juz a dream n memories..... 3.21..... all the best in the future......i miss kml 05/06.... laughter of 3.21 rocks the block B....... i love u all.....

The End Of A Day Is The Beginning Of A New Day....

Still 15 may 2005, what a long day.......huh.....after noticed that my identity card was gone, i was rushing to the felo's office to check whether i left my ic there, but no........... that time i totally feel like want to cry.... the felo ask me to look at the hall there ( at hall there, got counter "lost and found"), again, i ran to the hall, which is very far from the hostel....At the counter there, "NO" is the answer.... my ic totally lost in space!!! that night , i made a phone call to my mom tell her my ic was gone.... then... of course my mom scolded me for being so "Big Head"...but then she told me not to worry 'bout it....sure someone will found it....that night was totally extremely boring, although the room has 4 person, but nobody talking, when passing by, just smile......haha.....Mei Hui's room is 1st floor....same block but hers at the other side of the hostel....that night i'm worried bout my ic, worried but the challenges that i'm goin to face there, worried bout everything..... but then i'm not having a sleepless night though, i had a good nite sleep after unpacked all my things finish sms with garfield....maybe i was too tired....

the end of my day..... a very strange 15 of may..........

16 may 2005, Teacher's day......

i woke up early that day.......registration opened for the second day...wearing casually, i went to the hall, helping my friend those who register that day.... at the hall , i met Mr Riyis, Greg's father, i met Marliza's parent........i help marliza carried all her things to her room.....the weather at Labuan is very strange , at one minute, the sun shine & the weather is hot like stay in the oven , but at the other minute, raining cats & dogs..........haha... when carried marliza's things, it was raining, caused me all wet.......During the afternoon, i , mei hui, hui ying, marliza, hui ling( recently just cut off my friendship with her, not recently, in january...) were outing...i dun know why, that i'm brave enough using the detail that my sis gave me ( the detail is : use bus No:6 go to town) went to town with them....buying all the things that we need like food, mee maggi, mineral water & etc.........the food in the college was like "ARGH........", i went to toilet non-stop after ate those foods........but then that just a beginning , and that time i know i had to face it for a year..... Hmm... a year... a very long long time....how im goin to face it.....and then, i think of my ic again, nobody found it....i was thinking how if a police ask for my ic, n i dun have ic to show to him...will that police take me to police station??? haha.... wat a stupid thinking...but i really think like that, n i even thinking of want to make a report at police station bout my ic......alot of things to worry n the next day is the start of the orientation week for batch 05/06......have to wake up at 3am......i sleep early on 16 of may....................

my life ChAnGe after 16 of may...............................................

Continue~

After taking my luggages, i mean my overweight luggages..i make a phone call to my mom... telling her that i have reach Labuan safely...Walking out from the arrival hall... i  found that Labuan airport is so small...haha... What am i thinking~ haha...A gal walked to me , ask :" Are you chia yee's sis?"...i just answer yes.. and she bring me to her car..She is Xing Yee*... my sis's fren... Her mother in the car... I was like "WOW"...Toyota Camry Latest realeased car that time..i like that car very much... really...!Her father give a ride to Labuan Matriculation College.When i reach the college... so surprise! the college was facinating!~ A guy name Shen Kang* bring me to registration....Steps by steps..and lastly to the hostel...after all the registrations,my sis's fren, her father , shen kang* & her sis help me to carries my luggages to my room 8A2.6 Block KARISMA A...i was the last one that "checking-in" in that room...My roommate were Emi(Sabah), Nurul(Sabah), & Jogiana(Miri).....After everything settled down,i said bye & thank u to them...I rearrange my registration things, & i found out.... MY IDENTITY CARD GONE!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

*i'm not quite sure their name..

>>>To Be Continued<<<

I JuSt EnDeD ThE LiFe In LmC

15 May 2005..........

On the morning, i woke up and go to airport..with two overweight luggages. This is the first time i travel alone...and i'd late. After Checking-in, i rushed into the plane.. and sat at the last row in the cabin beside two guys...haha... how shame i was that time. The plane landed at KK International Airport about eleven, i was transit passanger and i waiting for the next flight at half pass three like a dumb inside the departure hall, i still remember that i met two chinese gals, one from sabah , one from bintulu...Both of them heading to the same place as i am...but we didnt talk much...i just sat at a corner near my departure door sms my best fren, Garfield. Waiting like a dumb for about 4 hours...the second flight departed..after 30 minutes then i reach Labuan....

>>>To be Continued<<<