Last day ....... of 2009

last day of every year is the time we look back to the whole year that about to become past....

hmm.. dunno what to write... achievement and most happy thing that happen?

1) graduated and get a degree~
2) got my on car
3) got my driving licence
4) got family vacation... even not far, only KL and malaka, but first time whole family go holiday together..
5) got my first job....
6) got my 1st branded handbag...
7) organized two camps
8) Thanks to EastarJet for having the direct flight from kuching to Incheon,Seoul..
8) what else?? cant think of many...

thing i havent achieved:
1) attend korean language - coz i cant found 1 in kuching
2) find a permanent job...
3) buy new hp...
4) buy laptop
5) travel to SKorea for winter holiday
6) what else????

anything i left out? dont mind to tell me.. hahhaahhh about sad thing, i think just forget it...hahah... just mention good thing that happen and thign i should i achieve.. hahahhaha

Give me a life... please

i have been stop writing blog since last few months...whatever then... feel like want to start again...

lately i'm not quite sure why i have a very unstable emotion ... so emotional, angry, sad..feels like my dark past come to find me again... i have been thinking the cause of why i am totally different from my family member in this particular part "EMOTION" ... im like to gain attention from people around .. im scare to be alone... now im telling the truth, I Hate people leaving me alone... yes.. i know, im getting angry easily lately, causing me to feel the loneness inside more previous and previous year... i hate myself for being angry easily... i want people to know that im there... simply say... i want people to give me the confident saying.."arey, yes, you are here beside us", if not, i feel lost....

y? y im acting like this... i have been thinking why... but i think i found the cause of making me more sick and sick... and when i found it out, i think i really need a psychologist to help me... that time... on what had happen really did made a deep deep scar in me... so i act like this now... i want people to pay attention to me and know that i'm there... that time, they all dun want to talk to me... im still crying when i think of that incident..even i cried... nobody cares....how old am i that time.. im just only 7 or 8...i rather prefer they scold me than not talking to me... that night really hurt me alot... and left a scar.. so is it the scar making me to reflect like this nowadays???? i havent say this word since 2006..... and tonight, out of nithing... i have repeated myself by saying "i hate myself....."

i need time now...i really need time now... new year is coming, hope everything will be better then...why i din share with people around... because sometimes there really go thing that we cannot share it out through words...

pray for getting better then.. and stop global warming...

Graduation....

the convocation is just a step away now...
august 15 is the convo... finally can graduate oledi..

scary lightning!!!!

it's happen yesterday...
where i was busy playing with ipod touch...
it was raining...
standing near dining room
and after all sudden, lightning strike straight
to my 2nd living window and hit...
"piak..." this is what i heard and that time ,
thing that i can do is close my eyes as tight as i can...
it was a total scary moment...
my sis said she saw a flash...
i guess the lightning was strike into house...
scary...
luckily nothing happen...

Birthday Present........that i received on my birthday......

@@ From Unimas's Friends....
This is the "Purple's Dream" drink that Shia Yok, Mei Hui, Mei Lu, Elise, Yew Li, Wei Jan, Ah Gui, Big Brother, and Kian Kok brought for me de.... Y? Because it is in purple colour... hahahha......
Actually there is oso a dinner.. which is cheese baked chicken chop rice.....

Then they also paid for the dinner for me.... actually not... they said they "chia " me... i secretly paid...then, they all give back money to me as "angpao" for my birthday... Pengz..

Then they brought few slice of secret recipe cheese cake to eat together at taman sahabat...

As a Conclusion , the most wonderful present i received from them is the time they spending with me.... more than 6 hours..... hahhah.. thanks alot.. and i love u ...

@@ From my family














This is the birthday cake my family brought for me.... well... i fried some chicken wings and chicken finger yesterday....My mom cooked bak kut teh....

Having a nice dinner with my family... thanks a lot to them... heheh...

though is simple.. yet it is the most meaningful moment for me..

@@With My Gang.....

This is the present that my gang gave me.... brought from 1borneo , kk there... through flight de oh....hahha... a very beautiful present.. i love it alot... because purple again... and "X" and "J" means alot to me.. hahhaha...

and of course not only this... they still paid for my drink and food yesterday....
hahha... really thanks to them... i love it a lot...

Conclusion.... not the presents are meaningful to me.. but them time they spent with me is the most meaningful of all.... and the best present of all, "TIMEs" they spent with me....

i love u all.....♥♥

Purple's dream......

purple... a very nice colour.....
well... i like purple alot...
i drink ribena....i eat purple rice...

purple colour desktop wallpaper....
purple cellphone wallpaper...
purple shirts...
purple shoes that i wore before...
purple earing..
purple stocking...
purple pens....
purple mechanical pencil...
purple hp hanger....
purple hp casing...
purple cloth hanger...
purple eye shadow...
purple mascara...
purple pen knife....
purple handbag....
purple lollipop...
purple background....
purple ....
purple... and purple .. and purple....

everything in purple....
i want to go to the purple sand seaside.....
i want to dye my hair into purple...
i want to use purple contact lenses...
i want to use purple frame for spec...
i want to see junsu singing "Purple Line"
i want own a purple hp...
i want own a purple ipod...
i want purple psp...
i want to paint my house into purple...

i want to paint myself in purple..
purple is mysterious...
i want to paint my dream into purple....
low profile purple...
purple is a secret yet is well-known...
make my dream purplely inside me...
and i will bring this purple dream to the end...
and leftover the purple line on the street....
that indicates the purplely path that i walk through...
that i purplely live in secret but yet known by others...
purplely breathe and heart-beating...
time passing noticed on the purple watch.....

like "purple snow falling on the desert"
purplely mysterious, special , yet sad and hurting...
live the life to the fullest with the purple's dream in heart.....

Happy Birthday~

happy birthday to me....
祝我生日快乐。。。。
생일 축하해!!!
Selamat Hari jadi!

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(Below i duno this is right or not... hahah... i use translator..)
私にハッピーバースデー~
joyeux anniversaire à moi!!! [French]
feliz aniversário para mim!!![Portuguese]
feliz cumpleaños a mí!!! [Spanish]
สุขสันต์วันเกิดให้ฉัน!!! [Thai]
maligaya kapanganakan sa akin!! [Filipino]
Χρόνια πολλά σε μένα [Greek]
मेरे जन्मदिन मुबारक हो !![Hindi]


This is how u can get wishes from almost all over the world.. heheh...

anyway happy birthday to me again....

앤지야, 앵일 축하해....[angie ya, happy birthday]
지금은 스물 둘 세[22 years old now ]
지금부터는 건강하게.....[from now on, stay healthy]
지금부터는 많은 많은 돈을 획득하다!!!![from now on, earn many many money]
그리고 부모님와 함께 한국에 여행을 가져....[and, get on a trip with my parent to south korea ...]

For those who have same birthday with me in this world.. Happy birthday to you.....

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old oledi...haiz...
22 years old...
the life of start struggle...
Today , since last night i havent lay down and sleep..
like that my birthday will b longer.. heheheh
this week i was very busy....
from tuesday, after meeting with lect...
a night out with my unimas bunch of best fren... thanks oh.. hehe
yesterday, a meeting for camp... then a supper at jalan song with camp fren...
then today.... the big day of mine....
the sweetest thing i want to do today is cook for my family...spending birthday with family surely is the best of all...행복해!!! ^^
then after dinner with family, out with my long live fren.... heheh... know them for more then 6 years.. some even 10 years... thanks in advance...
tomoro..... come unimas to pass up cd for fyp....
then night... dinner at 4point...
then fetch my sis at airport....
the next day ... taking driving law exam in the morning,
afternoon go training camp at ranchan for 2days 1 night.
until sunday back...
monday.. meeting with lect again.... hmm... quite busy leh...
i really busy this week...
그러지만, 기분이 좋아요.... i feel good and happy....


Thank to my family who always be at my side , as well as my long live and unimas fren..... thanks alot.... love u all.... hehhe...


Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!

Stupid Steamboat shop....

that day, 060509, we, 10 brothers went to steamboat behind hornbill....
so shit .... all of us got food poisoning and fell sick the day after,
SK vomit nonstop , same with shia yok, meilu and weijan diarrhea... ah ui , me and yewli fell sick... i dunno what happen ... izit the shop's food not clean or our problem... haiz...
this definitely a "good memory" then.... dont go to that shop ever again....

hope they get well better...
take care guys....

Ten Brothers...

its been 3 years we knew each other... well , a lot of things happen... but then , im still feeling very honored and happy to know u all , as well as been in this 10 brother....

u guys are like my family.. more than friends.. really... i will owes miss the time we spend together and i love u all......

My dream trip ....South Korea

Suddenly feel like want to write something...
about the a place i want to go after 2 year...
i telling myself to go to South Korea, in 2 years time...
enough for me to save money and learn my korean to a perfect level...
so i can take my backpack and walk around Seoul, gwang ju, je ju, busan,
and many more...
once i can identify all the places, then i can bring my parent go as they no need
to follow travel agancy... wakakaka

backpack traveler is what i want to be... hahah.... my goodness...
what happen to me...

May 06, 2009

i dunno what should i give the title of this blog... so consider is my diary then...
today, is the last day of fyp presentation n exhibition...
well... finally end ... huh! not yet... have to change report..

Since is the last day.... everyone is taking photo with course mates...
like market in the fyp lab... totally mess....
that concluded these three years of hardwork...
the feeling is complicated....
should i consider it as happy or sad?
happy for everything is finished, and yet sad for it is the end of everything...
too complicated.....

know what im doing on these three days of exhibition??
the 1st day.. was my presentation...
yes... start from morning, worrying... worrying ...worrying...
until 1pm, i sent myself to the war field....
got shot couples of time... but im still alive...
when i got back to the normal feeling, lab technician started to close light and aircon.... that the end of 1st day...
2nd day... night before.. thinking what should i do in the lab.. so i downloaded entertainment show to be watch in lab.. hahah... me and my fren laugh out quite loud.. hahahah.... people are curious that wat happen to us.. hahahah....
the 3rd day.... watch the show and walking around taking photos.... hahha.....
wat to do.. really nothing to do...

today oso went out with 10 brothers....
happy to spend my time with u guys....
really....
im happy to be in the group...
after steamboat dinner... when for a movie...
dun when we got chance to go out like this again...
hopefully there will be another time...
i will really miss u guys...

my coursemates...from a stranger to best friends... u guys are the best!
i will really miss u guys alot....

i love u all.....

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anyway....
another thing that i feel down is... junsu was injured during rehearsal... on 030509, and insists to perform even on wheelchair on 040509.
i watched the fancam... can see that sadness in his face... he like to dance, and be active on stage, but now on a wheelchair , only thing can do is moving his hand and head...sad.... feel sad for him...sprained ankle, that was what doctor said to him and ask him to rest and do not perform for the TSC concert because hurt his leg badly and can barely walk ... but he still insist...although he didnt join all the dance performance, he insist to stand up , at least for the last song, "Bolero"
and why he have to say sorry for his fan? not his mistake.... hope that he get well soon...

27 April is tomorrow....

yes, is tomorrow.... wow....
cant believe will finish soon....
and of course... these two days are too busy....
hate these feeling...
but be strong to face it... (even though have to face no matter how..)
after tuesday.. everyday will be a happy day...
fairy tale..?
wakakakka
i dunno whether i can step into hall by the middle of august
with my coursemate or not...
*cross finger* hopefully can graduate...^^

A cute love story.... by Tan Hong Ming ^^

remember the 50th National's day , and Petronas got a commercial like this??
My papa love this very much... everytimes he watch , he will like "kekeke..." laughing there.... i believe he want to watch it again.

Beautiful Imperfect

a beautiful story from woman who recently lost her husband...



nice commercial...

Appreciate Ur Family.... and Those Beside u....

the scaring moment of facebook...

with my itchy hand, i went to create a new account of facebook...
who knows... come out a big problem that make me almost cry...
create a new account with same email address as the 1st one....
caused my 1st account cannot be open...
all i can think is "DIE"....
how about my pet society....
my geo challenge.......
try so many ways to solve it.. include change the 2nd account email.. change password...deactivate the account...
but, i still can't open the 1st account....and it telling me... the email in not registered...
then cant figure a way, i have to email the Facebook team to help me... to deactivate and delete the 2nd account....

Out of all sudden, i remember that i put two email in the 1st account....
and Thank GOD,by using the second email, i able to open my 1st account again.... phew.....~
with speed of light , i ask the Facebook team to delete 2nd account permanently .... hahhaha
i wont do that again.... .. phew...
so here my advice: put two email in the facebook account.... hheheeh and hand dun so "itchy" do this and that.. hahaha

앤지야~ 화이팅!!

앤지야.......♥

아자 아자 화이팅!!

넌 할 수 있다, 진짜~

^^^^^^^^^

너자신을 믿다........
포기하지 말라요!!!!

"노력하다~"


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FYP Season~

lately really busy....
the time has been completely upside down.....
struggle and struggle.. hope i can finish in fastest time...
life really difficult...
headache...
really hope that this finish as soon as possible.....

there will be a start when there is an end....

well, today just finish my midterm...
kinda headache now.....
maybe not enough sleep....
just end the midterm, there shall be a start of FYP now...
Argh..... i will be busy for 2 week.....
i must finish in 2 week.....
stupid FYP.....

...................................OH NO!!!!!!...................................

hmmm...not only facebook...... exam still got time to blogging.......
certified "No Hope!!!!!!"

Sunday, February 22, 2009 ************************************************************************************
Good morning.....

right now already 5.12am morning....
yep... i'm still studying for my System programming exam.... argh...
so headache.....

guess what... everyone really seem to be addicted to Facebook....
included me....
even study for exam, i still will spend some time to go in there there to play games for a while..
kinda release stress gua.....

System programming.... i will fight you!!!!!!!
hahahha...abit sot sot di......hahah
march is approaching... fyp... hmm.. i just read my coding..
one sentence can describe me.. wait to die nia....
well i really hope i can be a korean teacher in the future...
i like korean language alot......
so alot , man.....hahahha
i dun wan to stay in IT field.... for me.. these 3 years, is a chance for me to absorb new knowledge..i wont spend my whole life in it... wakakaka....
toooooooo suffer......
after get my certificate... i can do whatever i want then.....
the journey of of being educated in school is almost reaching the end now....
get myself educated in some other field? sure, why not?, i want Korean language Course......
hahahha.... it will be more better study the culture and everything about it...
argh... can see that im very stress...
hahahhaha... yeah... im having my headache now....
feel like want to crush my head to the wall where tvxq poster is... hahahhaha
ok... i better stop this..... hahahah....
........ ok for now...
gotta get back to work... erm.... i mean get back to my study... wakakak...
Wish me luck in my exam......

i'm glad and i'm sad....

well.... starting this blog again after left it be empty for hundred and thousand of years.......
i was wondering to finish up my friendster blog or something...
ok.. will put into a deep consideration....

it's been years now.......
i was wondering myself that i did really let go everything?
now... i did confirmed myself that i did......
yesterday just knew some booming news ....
i'm glad that i've been step out from this matter for years now....
avoiding myself from falling into a deeper well.....
i really did a good deed to myself and making a right choice at the right time....
but i'm still sad for the one who involved in this matter too...
or should i say, that is what i faced hundred and thousand years ago?
and i should say, i'm sad because i got frenz like that... hmm?
nah.. everthing is pass....
Just let everything gone with the wind ~!
stay strong....
i'm happy with who i am now, and life i live in now...
i'm glad to be single and myself now...


" Most of the time, Why we let the small matter to make us sad, rather than let the happiness to make us happy?"

it's unworthy to be sad over a sad matter.... that is childish.....Stay happy and healthy

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i'm going to sleep now... hahahha.....