Maybe sometimes i really think too much... but yet, i'm sure that i am very scare to be hurt again and the dark happen again ... i dun wan to be hurt again so right now i dun wan to ask much whch that is not belongs to me and what that will not belongs to me.... everything comes and go.... i guess i wouldn't have a better life either........... although everything passed... the effect still in me... and i guess i'm still phobia with it.... i dun want to welcome the problem to come into my life life really unexpectable...... things not happen according to what you want.... does this the method that God used to train human to be strong? i think i'm strong enough facing my feeling... but things still looking for me and caused me break down and cry.... and what is that for? i really dunno.......... that day i found out that the scare looking for me.... the phobia..... i dun want things happen and happen again.... the strong in me will be chop off again and again until i loss it..... and that time i really dun know what will happen to me.......i guess i will loss myself....... only God knows everythings........
