Suddenly browse through my long left-unentertained blog,
Reading the letter written by 24 years old me to thhe 19 years old me ..
slightly abit of feeling touched,
slightly abit of feeling sad,
slightly abit of feeling happy,
a complicated feeling
and definitely.. im feeling old now...
Just celebrated my 27th birthday last month.
My last post was 3 years ago.
Many things happen and changed this 3 years
I barely can remember all the event.
only a few.....
travel to korea,
erm.... and
.................
i choose to be forgetful i think... i chose it..
by that way, i can be a happy girl then.. :)
but now i having a great life
by less being negative... smile all the time.. temper reduce abit...
and......... :)
Friday, 13 June 2014
Thursday, 28 April 2011
Are you Angry??
Recently , so obsessed with the angry team... hehe... THE ANGRY BIRD~
who are them ?? i guess almost everyone knew about it..
with their angry faces(which people consider it is very cute, oh well, me too)..
puffy angry birds plush is selling in every shopping mall..
i wonder it is original or not..
but when i saw it, i bought with out hesitation ..
the pillow with.... nope.. not the birds.. is the pig..
hahaha
unbelievable...
even when u play the game,
when u can hit the pig and they laugh at u,
u really feel wan to kill them with ur own hand... haha
but they undeniably cute..
hehe...
lastly, one of the wallpaper i like...
Tuesday, 26 April 2011
Aloha! My Rainbow!
ooopss... i guess i left here for all the debris terrorized it... sorry , my bloggy...
CLEARING IN PROGRESS~
after read back mine outdated 2006-2008 blog....
found out the life i had before ,
full with colours.... sweet, sour , bitter and spicy... haha...
this blog , since 2010 aug, used to scold people.... then it was let untouched...
i dunno this begin will last for how long...
although i looks very free in my working hour.. but i guess... i guess...
big load of task will be flowing in.. wahahaha..... need to start attending workshop...
am i confirm for my position??? wahahah.. this is what i want to hear in this year...
next year, will boXus given??? hehe ...
well... every office-ter , who don't hope for that?
here goes again.. my mind went blank....
i dunno what to write...
Write the feedback to myself after read the blog
written by 19 years old's aReY??
hahah... not a bad idea... to tell the past aReY
on what the present aReY want to say..
_________________________
Monday, 12 April 2010
You know you're DBSK crazy when ........
You google search Cassiopeia in hopes of finding the headquarters and joining
You continue looking to be a part of Cassiopeia even though you kinda cant
Everytime you see a picture from a variety show, you know exactly what was going on
You can tell what DBSK era/phase they were in by their hair
Are still trying to find a way to join Cassiopeia
Want to learn Korean
Want to go to Korea
Want to become that staff memer that wipes the sweat off their faces after a performance
You momentarily want to become a back up dancer just so you can touch them during the "Tohodancer Tohodance Tohodancer FIGHTING" chant
Have already taken steps to learn the MIROTIC dance
Whenever you talk to others about DBSK, you talk as if you are close personal friends with them
e.x. "Did you know Max talks in his sleep?.... Micky is so crazy when he's tipsy..."
You start laughing with one of your hands covering your mouth (JJ style)
You clap while you laugh (Max style)
You've absent-mindedly began to laugh like Xiah Junsu
At a particular hysterical moment you always do a "stand and walk around" laugh (DBSK style)
You know the answer to a variety show question about their personal habits/preferences
e.x. "MC: Micky, what body part do you look at first when you see a woman
You: The neck... d'uh
Micky: The neck"
You scream along during Max's part in Rising Sun
You do the little butt thing Yunho does in the beginning of "O"
You know how many siblings they each have
You really want to know what their favourite colours are
When you find out their favorite color is the same as yours you, for SOME reason, get extremely excited
You talk about DBSK to anyone with ears
You've seen the Mirotic MV and Wrong Number MV an excessive amount of times
Fell in love with Bolero within the first 6 seconds of hearing it
You can call out who's voice is who's when they sing
You look to them for Fashion advice
Want to get your hands on the DVDs even though the only Korean words you understand are "hyung... saranghae... and oppa"
Are able to watch a 60 minute Variety show without subs and feel like you know what their saying
The people around you hum Mirotic against their will 'cause you play it all the time
You twitch everytime you hear Mirotic and Wrong Number 'cause you've been practicing the dance moves and your body can't help but want to dance
Your friends talk about how they've been eating all day and you inform them about how Max eats 8 meals a day... they have no idea who Max is
OR
... they actually know who Max is because all you talk about is DBSK
Your friends ask you "what's new" and all you tell them is what new thing you found out about DBSK because that's all you've been doing all day (watching Variety and Radio Shows).
You want to become famous in your country JUST so you can somehow use your fame to get closer to them
You know all the English words in their songs... and that's about all you can sing
Even though you sometimes Criticize Cassiopeia... you still look for a way to be a part of it
You want "Miduhyo (Believe)" and "My Little Princess" to be played at your Wedding~
Whenever you watch a performance by them you look around for something red to wave around
Everytime you hear about their "ideal girl" you see if you compare... no matter which member it is
You go into withdrawal when you havent done something DBSK related for a while
Even though you dont live in Korea and still follow their Japanese activities, you're kinda sad they're going back to Japan soon
You're extremely proud of them when they write a song
When you read fun random facts about DBSK... you know about 97% of them already
You believe they've all lived up to the meaning behind their names (U-know, Hero, Xiah, Micky (lol), Max)
You want to get a UFO account
Because you CAN'T get a UFO account, you think up things to say if you did have one... and wonder who would answer as well as what he would say
You KNOW they are here to stay
You feel sorry for what Cassiopeia would do to SM Entertainmentif they ever disbanded DBSK
You're still looking for ways to be a registered member of Cassiopeia
You want to send DBSK a video of you gushing about how much you love them and how much you appreciate their music
Even though you downloaded some of their songs,... you still want to buy their albums
You want to give Micky a big hug every time you see him cry
Even though there might be members you like more than the others... you dont dislike any of them
You say a random "Fighting" or "Hwaiting" when you're about to do something intense (or not so intense)
You still laugh at the "U-Know Yunho- Fighting, Choikang ChangMin- Fighting, Micky Yoochun- Fighting, Youngwoong JaeJoong- Fighting, Dong Bang Shin Ki- FIGHTING" ........ "... Xiah Junsu- Fighting" thing
You know the "Kamo, Come On!" Oyagi gag, compliments of Xiah Junsu
You get pissed when people say that DBSK is overrated...
You want to give Xiah a hug every time he does something only Xiah would do
You see a "stalking" video on youtube featuring one of the members and feel bad that they can't get any privacy... but still watch the video.
If you ever meet another DBSK fan outside of the internet you immediately feel like you've known each other for years
You know their birthdays but don't know your own friends's birthday
If a few of the members are missing on a Variety show you can imagine what the missing members would say if they were there
You make up sound-alike-lyrics to the Korean/Japanese lyrics just so you can sing along.
You think up fan group names as catchy as "Cassiopeia" and "Big East" for your country
You want to shake hands with whomever thought of Cassiopeia
You're STILL looking for ways to join Cassiopeia
Get upset when people still say 800,000 fans because it's an outdated number -there are waaaaay more than that now
You're in on the "Max and his 'special' movies" joke
You might be the girl in Wrong Number (the one that calls them a lot) (lmao!)
For some reason, you love JJ even more when you find out he takes risque pictures of the others
Whenever you hear a good song, you want to use to it to make an FanVideo about DBSK
Your body went through spasms when you found out DBSK was going to be on FuseTV
You get as excited as the people in the show when Yunho uses his hometown dialect... even though you really can't tell the difference
Credits: Yongo10@crunchyroll
You continue looking to be a part of Cassiopeia even though you kinda cant
Everytime you see a picture from a variety show, you know exactly what was going on
You can tell what DBSK era/phase they were in by their hair
Are still trying to find a way to join Cassiopeia
Want to learn Korean
Want to go to Korea
Want to become that staff memer that wipes the sweat off their faces after a performance
You momentarily want to become a back up dancer just so you can touch them during the "Tohodancer Tohodance Tohodancer FIGHTING" chant
Have already taken steps to learn the MIROTIC dance
Whenever you talk to others about DBSK, you talk as if you are close personal friends with them
e.x. "Did you know Max talks in his sleep?.... Micky is so crazy when he's tipsy..."
You start laughing with one of your hands covering your mouth (JJ style)
You clap while you laugh (Max style)
You've absent-mindedly began to laugh like Xiah Junsu
At a particular hysterical moment you always do a "stand and walk around" laugh (DBSK style)
You know the answer to a variety show question about their personal habits/preferences
e.x. "MC: Micky, what body part do you look at first when you see a woman
You: The neck... d'uh
Micky: The neck"
You scream along during Max's part in Rising Sun
You do the little butt thing Yunho does in the beginning of "O"
You know how many siblings they each have
You really want to know what their favourite colours are
When you find out their favorite color is the same as yours you, for SOME reason, get extremely excited
You talk about DBSK to anyone with ears
You've seen the Mirotic MV and Wrong Number MV an excessive amount of times
Fell in love with Bolero within the first 6 seconds of hearing it
You can call out who's voice is who's when they sing
You look to them for Fashion advice
Want to get your hands on the DVDs even though the only Korean words you understand are "hyung... saranghae... and oppa"
Are able to watch a 60 minute Variety show without subs and feel like you know what their saying
The people around you hum Mirotic against their will 'cause you play it all the time
You twitch everytime you hear Mirotic and Wrong Number 'cause you've been practicing the dance moves and your body can't help but want to dance
Your friends talk about how they've been eating all day and you inform them about how Max eats 8 meals a day... they have no idea who Max is
OR
... they actually know who Max is because all you talk about is DBSK
Your friends ask you "what's new" and all you tell them is what new thing you found out about DBSK because that's all you've been doing all day (watching Variety and Radio Shows).
You want to become famous in your country JUST so you can somehow use your fame to get closer to them
You know all the English words in their songs... and that's about all you can sing
Even though you sometimes Criticize Cassiopeia... you still look for a way to be a part of it
You want "Miduhyo (Believe)" and "My Little Princess" to be played at your Wedding~
Whenever you watch a performance by them you look around for something red to wave around
Everytime you hear about their "ideal girl" you see if you compare... no matter which member it is
You go into withdrawal when you havent done something DBSK related for a while
Even though you dont live in Korea and still follow their Japanese activities, you're kinda sad they're going back to Japan soon
You're extremely proud of them when they write a song
When you read fun random facts about DBSK... you know about 97% of them already
You believe they've all lived up to the meaning behind their names (U-know, Hero, Xiah, Micky (lol), Max)
You want to get a UFO account
Because you CAN'T get a UFO account, you think up things to say if you did have one... and wonder who would answer as well as what he would say
You KNOW they are here to stay
You feel sorry for what Cassiopeia would do to SM Entertainmentif they ever disbanded DBSK
You're still looking for ways to be a registered member of Cassiopeia
You want to send DBSK a video of you gushing about how much you love them and how much you appreciate their music
Even though you downloaded some of their songs,... you still want to buy their albums
You want to give Micky a big hug every time you see him cry
Even though there might be members you like more than the others... you dont dislike any of them
You say a random "Fighting" or "Hwaiting" when you're about to do something intense (or not so intense)
You still laugh at the "U-Know Yunho- Fighting, Choikang ChangMin- Fighting, Micky Yoochun- Fighting, Youngwoong JaeJoong- Fighting, Dong Bang Shin Ki- FIGHTING" ........ "... Xiah Junsu- Fighting" thing
You know the "Kamo, Come On!" Oyagi gag, compliments of Xiah Junsu
You get pissed when people say that DBSK is overrated...
You want to give Xiah a hug every time he does something only Xiah would do
You see a "stalking" video on youtube featuring one of the members and feel bad that they can't get any privacy... but still watch the video.
If you ever meet another DBSK fan outside of the internet you immediately feel like you've known each other for years
You know their birthdays but don't know your own friends's birthday
If a few of the members are missing on a Variety show you can imagine what the missing members would say if they were there
You make up sound-alike-lyrics to the Korean/Japanese lyrics just so you can sing along.
You think up fan group names as catchy as "Cassiopeia" and "Big East" for your country
You want to shake hands with whomever thought of Cassiopeia
You're STILL looking for ways to join Cassiopeia
Get upset when people still say 800,000 fans because it's an outdated number -there are waaaaay more than that now
You're in on the "Max and his 'special' movies" joke
You might be the girl in Wrong Number (the one that calls them a lot) (lmao!)
For some reason, you love JJ even more when you find out he takes risque pictures of the others
Whenever you hear a good song, you want to use to it to make an FanVideo about DBSK
Your body went through spasms when you found out DBSK was going to be on FuseTV
You get as excited as the people in the show when Yunho uses his hometown dialect... even though you really can't tell the difference
Credits: Yongo10@crunchyroll
Thursday, 8 April 2010
April~
看见朋友们好像每天都在写部落格，
觉得自己好像真的变了，变得更内向了，
变得不爱分享内心深处的心得了，我是怎么了？
长大了，就会变成这样吗？
长大了，高兴·伤心 都心甘情愿地自己吞了起来吗？
我记得我以前很爱写部落格的，
现在，是什么让我改变了？
每天都会带着一大堆的烦恼入睡，
醒过来又要面对新的挑战，
单纯地看这世界，它是多么的漂亮，
但是，却像玫瑰花般，带着无数的刺，
多么的邪恶， 多么的恐怖……
是这世界让我改变的吗？
也许这就是所谓的：成长的代价吧～
小时候的世界永远是最漂亮 最完美的……
四月份了……
为什么总觉得四月份发生好多事情呢？
忧郁症的开始，
公公的忌日，
FYP的海啸，
合约的终点，等等……
但是，我很庆幸我可以熬过，尤其是忧郁症……
现在回想起，都觉得可怕，
那把“尺”真的好可怕～
脑海里的另外一个声音，让我头痛，让我害怕，
眼泪可以无缘无故地流下，
心情起伏不定，那声音唤起我自杀的念头，
还好自己胆量小，拿起刀却动不下手，
真谢谢我那小小的胆量，
因为一些原因，因为一些哲言，
我还站在这里，
很高兴， 我可以成功摆脱它……
在我生命中，印象最深刻的忧郁症在一年后划下了句点……
公公的忌日，
还记得当时，一清二楚的
Form1 的时候
我在叔叔家看着台湾综艺节目，阿亮的节目，
而叔叔他们都在医院照顾中风的公公，
八点多时，妈妈打电话过来说公公快不行了，叫我赶快回家，
虽然有点不愿意，但还是回家了，
二姑在家陪我们几姐妹，
九点……九点半……十点了……，还是没有消息，
大家都很紧张，发呆的发呆，二姑一直打电话，
打通了， 有人接了，却传来坏的消息，
站在电话旁的我们， 看着双眼通红的二姑说，公公去世了，
叫我们赶快换上适当的衣服， 我往了是谁载们去店的……
我哭了好大声……
去到店，眼睛装满了眼泪，看见公公躺在那里
再也不会动了， 再也不会对我笑了……
一整夜，我一直看着公公，睡也没睡……
现在想起，公公去世已经快十年了，
但还是觉的他没有离开过我们，
常常都会托梦到公公回来看我们，
去扫墓的时候，看着公公的墓碑，公公的遗照，
我们都会觉的公公在对我们微笑……
曾经有一次梦到公公， 公公非常高兴地说“我的孙子来看我了……”
希望公公在另外一个世界里活得开心……
FYP，我也不想多说，
哭了多少眼泪， 失眠了多少夜，
让我不愿在想起……
工作合约在这个月完了
曾经让我苦恼了一阵子，
会不会失业？车怎么办？接下来该怎么办？
但是，多得我的恩师们 M.L 和 P.W，
合约没完就已经有新工作在等我了，
真的好开心， 真是谢谢我的恩师们……
现在的目标= 做好我的工作 和 我要去韩国！！！！
现在就见一步走一步咯。。。
谢谢朋友们的陪伴，
有了你们生活好精彩哦～
就因为有你们在UNIMAS，我才不想离开的……嘻嘻～
一个一个月地过，你们也忙 MASTER 的 paper，
不要忽略健康哦～
那个早早就逃到外面工作的人 （你知道你是谁~）
专心工作哦～ 每天把 SATELLITE 对准 UNIMAS 来 38 的～
哈哈哈。。。
有些话不是常常可以说出口的，
这时部落格就可以派上用场了……
当部落格只记载伤心的事时，
它就变得很可怕，
当部落格记载快乐的回忆时，
它自然的就会让你微笑起来……
觉得自己好像真的变了，变得更内向了，
变得不爱分享内心深处的心得了，我是怎么了？
长大了，就会变成这样吗？
长大了，高兴·伤心 都心甘情愿地自己吞了起来吗？
我记得我以前很爱写部落格的，
现在，是什么让我改变了？
每天都会带着一大堆的烦恼入睡，
醒过来又要面对新的挑战，
单纯地看这世界，它是多么的漂亮，
但是，却像玫瑰花般，带着无数的刺，
多么的邪恶， 多么的恐怖……
是这世界让我改变的吗？
也许这就是所谓的：成长的代价吧～
小时候的世界永远是最漂亮 最完美的……
四月份了……
为什么总觉得四月份发生好多事情呢？
忧郁症的开始，
公公的忌日，
FYP的海啸，
合约的终点，等等……
但是，我很庆幸我可以熬过，尤其是忧郁症……
现在回想起，都觉得可怕，
那把“尺”真的好可怕～
脑海里的另外一个声音，让我头痛，让我害怕，
眼泪可以无缘无故地流下，
心情起伏不定，那声音唤起我自杀的念头，
还好自己胆量小，拿起刀却动不下手，
真谢谢我那小小的胆量，
因为一些原因，因为一些哲言，
我还站在这里，
很高兴， 我可以成功摆脱它……
在我生命中，印象最深刻的忧郁症在一年后划下了句点……
公公的忌日，
还记得当时，一清二楚的
Form1 的时候
我在叔叔家看着台湾综艺节目，阿亮的节目，
而叔叔他们都在医院照顾中风的公公，
八点多时，妈妈打电话过来说公公快不行了，叫我赶快回家，
虽然有点不愿意，但还是回家了，
二姑在家陪我们几姐妹，
九点……九点半……十点了……，还是没有消息，
大家都很紧张，发呆的发呆，二姑一直打电话，
打通了， 有人接了，却传来坏的消息，
站在电话旁的我们， 看着双眼通红的二姑说，公公去世了，
叫我们赶快换上适当的衣服， 我往了是谁载们去店的……
我哭了好大声……
去到店，眼睛装满了眼泪，看见公公躺在那里
再也不会动了， 再也不会对我笑了……
一整夜，我一直看着公公，睡也没睡……
现在想起，公公去世已经快十年了，
但还是觉的他没有离开过我们，
常常都会托梦到公公回来看我们，
去扫墓的时候，看着公公的墓碑，公公的遗照，
我们都会觉的公公在对我们微笑……
曾经有一次梦到公公， 公公非常高兴地说“我的孙子来看我了……”
希望公公在另外一个世界里活得开心……
FYP，我也不想多说，
哭了多少眼泪， 失眠了多少夜，
让我不愿在想起……
工作合约在这个月完了
曾经让我苦恼了一阵子，
会不会失业？车怎么办？接下来该怎么办？
但是，多得我的恩师们 M.L 和 P.W，
合约没完就已经有新工作在等我了，
真的好开心， 真是谢谢我的恩师们……
现在的目标= 做好我的工作 和 我要去韩国！！！！
现在就见一步走一步咯。。。
谢谢朋友们的陪伴，
有了你们生活好精彩哦～
就因为有你们在UNIMAS，我才不想离开的……嘻嘻～
一个一个月地过，你们也忙 MASTER 的 paper，
不要忽略健康哦～
那个早早就逃到外面工作的人 （你知道你是谁~）
专心工作哦～ 每天把 SATELLITE 对准 UNIMAS 来 38 的～
哈哈哈。。。
有些话不是常常可以说出口的，
这时部落格就可以派上用场了……
当部落格只记载伤心的事时，
它就变得很可怕，
当部落格记载快乐的回忆时，
它自然的就会让你微笑起来……
Wednesday, 10 March 2010
Ever Heard of K.Will?
Who is K.Will?
Well he is a talented singer.. a romanticist singer...
a very low profile person, i guess....
and a bit DaeSung look alike... hehehe
this is the song.... again, i search for it for almost a year...
a very nice song that caught my attention on him...
here is it,
K. Will - Love 119 (Feat. MC Mong)
i like this song alot....
from this song.. i started to listen all his song,
like "left heart", "Miss Miss Miss" album and many more...
all are ballad songs which are good to listen when driving car....
yesterday... he released a new single.."Present". again...
caught my attention as the same concept with "LOVE 119" is used in this new song...
and the mv...
a must to mention... a very sweet and simple mv that deliver alot of messages...
with the friendly appear of Thunder of MBLAQ, DONGHO from UKISS and another one i dunno who... and the little cute little boy.... nice mv....
here come the new mv;
enjoy~... ^^
Well he is a talented singer.. a romanticist singer...
a very low profile person, i guess....
and a bit DaeSung look alike... hehehe
this is the song.... again, i search for it for almost a year...
a very nice song that caught my attention on him...
here is it,
K. Will - Love 119 (Feat. MC Mong)
i like this song alot....
from this song.. i started to listen all his song,
like "left heart", "Miss Miss Miss" album and many more...
all are ballad songs which are good to listen when driving car....
yesterday... he released a new single.."Present". again...
caught my attention as the same concept with "LOVE 119" is used in this new song...
and the mv...
a must to mention... a very sweet and simple mv that deliver alot of messages...
with the friendly appear of Thunder of MBLAQ, DONGHO from UKISS and another one i dunno who... and the little cute little boy.... nice mv....
here come the new mv;
enjoy~... ^^
Song that i have been searched for so long..
i cant remember when i heard it before,
but that song stored in my mind and some secret place
When Jaejong sing that song in Golden Fishery in year 2007,
"That song sound similiar...where did i heard it before?",
strange, i never listen to korean song before "Winter Sonata" year...
i searched for it , googled for it "Song + Jaejung + golden fishery"
But i never got the result....
until that day, i watch the Big Bang Intimate Note.....
and they performed the song i searched....
i finally know who's the singer and the song title...
Candy by H.O.T
checked the detail, this song is way back to year 1996
released by H.O.T..........
that was so long ago...
but netizen said that this is most popular song that year..
i guess this is the reason i heard it before....
the melody, the music kept in my mind without my notice..
maybe it is not so special for others.. you... him or she..
but then, this song, i have been search for it for few years
and i finally found it... i love this song...
but that song stored in my mind and some secret place
When Jaejong sing that song in Golden Fishery in year 2007,
"That song sound similiar...where did i heard it before?",
strange, i never listen to korean song before "Winter Sonata" year...
i searched for it , googled for it "Song + Jaejung + golden fishery"
But i never got the result....
until that day, i watch the Big Bang Intimate Note.....
and they performed the song i searched....
i finally know who's the singer and the song title...
Candy by H.O.T
checked the detail, this song is way back to year 1996
released by H.O.T..........
that was so long ago...
but netizen said that this is most popular song that year..
i guess this is the reason i heard it before....
the melody, the music kept in my mind without my notice..
maybe it is not so special for others.. you... him or she..
but then, this song, i have been search for it for few years
and i finally found it... i love this song...
Wednesday, 30 December 2009
Last day ....... of 2009
last day of every year is the time we look back to the whole year that about to become past....
hmm.. dunno what to write... achievement and most happy thing that happen?
1) graduated and get a degree~
2) got my on car
3) got my driving licence
4) got family vacation... even not far, only KL and malaka, but first time whole family go holiday together..
5) got my first job....
6) got my 1st branded handbag...
7) organized two camps
8) Thanks to EastarJet for having the direct flight from kuching to Incheon,Seoul..
8) what else?? cant think of many...
thing i havent achieved:
1) attend korean language - coz i cant found 1 in kuching
2) find a permanent job...
3) buy new hp...
4) buy laptop
5) travel to SKorea for winter holiday
6) what else????
anything i left out? dont mind to tell me.. hahhaahhh about sad thing, i think just forget it...hahah... just mention good thing that happen and thign i should i achieve.. hahahhaha
hmm.. dunno what to write... achievement and most happy thing that happen?
1) graduated and get a degree~
2) got my on car
3) got my driving licence
4) got family vacation... even not far, only KL and malaka, but first time whole family go holiday together..
5) got my first job....
6) got my 1st branded handbag...
7) organized two camps
8) Thanks to EastarJet for having the direct flight from kuching to Incheon,Seoul..
8) what else?? cant think of many...
thing i havent achieved:
1) attend korean language - coz i cant found 1 in kuching
2) find a permanent job...
3) buy new hp...
4) buy laptop
5) travel to SKorea for winter holiday
6) what else????
anything i left out? dont mind to tell me.. hahhaahhh about sad thing, i think just forget it...hahah... just mention good thing that happen and thign i should i achieve.. hahahhaha
Saturday, 26 December 2009
Give me a life... please
i have been stop writing blog since last few months...whatever then... feel like want to start again...
lately i'm not quite sure why i have a very unstable emotion ... so emotional, angry, sad..feels like my dark past come to find me again... i have been thinking the cause of why i am totally different from my family member in this particular part "EMOTION" ... im like to gain attention from people around .. im scare to be alone... now im telling the truth, I Hate people leaving me alone... yes.. i know, im getting angry easily lately, causing me to feel the loneness inside more previous and previous year... i hate myself for being angry easily... i want people to know that im there... simply say... i want people to give me the confident saying.."arey, yes, you are here beside us", if not, i feel lost....
y? y im acting like this... i have been thinking why... but i think i found the cause of making me more sick and sick... and when i found it out, i think i really need a psychologist to help me... that time... on what had happen really did made a deep deep scar in me... so i act like this now... i want people to pay attention to me and know that i'm there... that time, they all dun want to talk to me... im still crying when i think of that incident..even i cried... nobody cares....how old am i that time.. im just only 7 or 8...i rather prefer they scold me than not talking to me... that night really hurt me alot... and left a scar.. so is it the scar making me to reflect like this nowadays???? i havent say this word since 2006..... and tonight, out of nithing... i have repeated myself by saying "i hate myself....."
i need time now...i really need time now... new year is coming, hope everything will be better then...why i din share with people around... because sometimes there really go thing that we cannot share it out through words...
pray for getting better then.. and stop global warming...
lately i'm not quite sure why i have a very unstable emotion ... so emotional, angry, sad..feels like my dark past come to find me again... i have been thinking the cause of why i am totally different from my family member in this particular part "EMOTION" ... im like to gain attention from people around .. im scare to be alone... now im telling the truth, I Hate people leaving me alone... yes.. i know, im getting angry easily lately, causing me to feel the loneness inside more previous and previous year... i hate myself for being angry easily... i want people to know that im there... simply say... i want people to give me the confident saying.."arey, yes, you are here beside us", if not, i feel lost....
y? y im acting like this... i have been thinking why... but i think i found the cause of making me more sick and sick... and when i found it out, i think i really need a psychologist to help me... that time... on what had happen really did made a deep deep scar in me... so i act like this now... i want people to pay attention to me and know that i'm there... that time, they all dun want to talk to me... im still crying when i think of that incident..even i cried... nobody cares....how old am i that time.. im just only 7 or 8...i rather prefer they scold me than not talking to me... that night really hurt me alot... and left a scar.. so is it the scar making me to reflect like this nowadays???? i havent say this word since 2006..... and tonight, out of nithing... i have repeated myself by saying "i hate myself....."
i need time now...i really need time now... new year is coming, hope everything will be better then...why i din share with people around... because sometimes there really go thing that we cannot share it out through words...
pray for getting better then.. and stop global warming...
Friday, 26 June 2009
Graduation....
the convocation is just a step away now...
august 15 is the convo... finally can graduate oledi..
august 15 is the convo... finally can graduate oledi..
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
scary lightning!!!!
it's happen yesterday...
where i was busy playing with ipod touch...
it was raining...
standing near dining room
and after all sudden, lightning strike straight
to my 2nd living window and hit...
"piak..." this is what i heard and that time ,
thing that i can do is close my eyes as tight as i can...
it was a total scary moment...
my sis said she saw a flash...
i guess the lightning was strike into house...
scary...
luckily nothing happen...
where i was busy playing with ipod touch...
it was raining...
standing near dining room
and after all sudden, lightning strike straight
to my 2nd living window and hit...
"piak..." this is what i heard and that time ,
thing that i can do is close my eyes as tight as i can...
it was a total scary moment...
my sis said she saw a flash...
i guess the lightning was strike into house...
scary...
luckily nothing happen...
Thursday, 21 May 2009
Birthday Present........that i received on my birthday......
@@ From Unimas's Friends....
This is the "Purple's Dream" drink that Shia Yok, Mei Hui, Mei Lu, Elise, Yew Li, Wei Jan, Ah Gui, Big Brother, and Kian Kok brought for me de.... Y? Because it is in purple colour... hahahha......
Actually there is oso a dinner.. which is cheese baked chicken chop rice.....
@@ From my family
This is the birthday cake my family brought for me.... well... i fried some chicken wings and chicken finger yesterday....My mom cooked bak kut teh....
Having a nice dinner with my family... thanks a lot to them... heheh...
This is the "Purple's Dream" drink that Shia Yok, Mei Hui, Mei Lu, Elise, Yew Li, Wei Jan, Ah Gui, Big Brother, and Kian Kok brought for me de.... Y? Because it is in purple colour... hahahha......Actually there is oso a dinner.. which is cheese baked chicken chop rice.....
Then they also paid for the dinner for me.... actually not... they said they "chia " me... i secretly paid...then, they all give back money to me as "angpao" for my birthday... Pengz..
Then they brought few slice of secret recipe cheese cake to eat together at taman sahabat...
As a Conclusion , the most wonderful present i received from them is the time they spending with me.... more than 6 hours..... hahhah.. thanks alot.. and i love u ...
@@ From my family
This is the birthday cake my family brought for me.... well... i fried some chicken wings and chicken finger yesterday....My mom cooked bak kut teh....
Having a nice dinner with my family... thanks a lot to them... heheh...
though is simple.. yet it is the most meaningful moment for me..
@@With My Gang.....
This is the present that my gang gave me.... brought from 1borneo , kk there... through flight de oh....hahha... a very beautiful present.. i love it alot... because purple again... and "X" and "J" means alot to me.. hahhaha...
and of course not only this... they still paid for my drink and food yesterday....
hahha... really thanks to them... i love it a lot...
Conclusion.... not the presents are meaningful to me.. but them time they spent with me is the most meaningful of all.... and the best present of all, "TIMEs" they spent with me....
i love u all.....♥♥
Wednesday, 20 May 2009
Purple's dream......
purple... a very nice colour.....
well... i like purple alot...
i drink ribena....i eat purple rice...
purple colour desktop wallpaper....
purple cellphone wallpaper...
purple shirts...
purple shoes that i wore before...
purple earing..
purple stocking...
purple pens....
purple mechanical pencil...
purple hp hanger....
purple hp casing...
purple cloth hanger...
purple eye shadow...
purple mascara...
purple pen knife....
purple handbag....
purple lollipop...
purple background....
purple ....
purple... and purple .. and purple....
everything in purple....
i want to go to the purple sand seaside.....
i want to dye my hair into purple...
i want to use purple contact lenses...
i want to use purple frame for spec...
i want to see junsu singing "Purple Line"
i want own a purple hp...
i want own a purple ipod...
i want purple psp...
i want to paint my house into purple...
i want to paint myself in purple..
purple is mysterious...
i want to paint my dream into purple....
low profile purple...
purple is a secret yet is well-known...
make my dream purplely inside me...
and i will bring this purple dream to the end...
and leftover the purple line on the street....
that indicates the purplely path that i walk through...
that i purplely live in secret but yet known by others...
purplely breathe and heart-beating...
time passing noticed on the purple watch.....
like "purple snow falling on the desert"
purplely mysterious, special , yet sad and hurting...
live the life to the fullest with the purple's dream in heart.....
well... i like purple alot...
i drink ribena....i eat purple rice...
purple colour desktop wallpaper....
purple cellphone wallpaper...
purple shirts...
purple shoes that i wore before...
purple earing..
purple stocking...
purple pens....
purple mechanical pencil...
purple hp hanger....
purple hp casing...
purple cloth hanger...
purple eye shadow...
purple mascara...
purple pen knife....
purple handbag....
purple lollipop...
purple background....
purple ....
purple... and purple .. and purple....
everything in purple....
i want to go to the purple sand seaside.....
i want to dye my hair into purple...
i want to use purple contact lenses...
i want to use purple frame for spec...
i want to see junsu singing "Purple Line"
i want own a purple hp...
i want own a purple ipod...
i want purple psp...
i want to paint my house into purple...
i want to paint myself in purple..
purple is mysterious...
i want to paint my dream into purple....
low profile purple...
purple is a secret yet is well-known...
make my dream purplely inside me...
and i will bring this purple dream to the end...
and leftover the purple line on the street....
that indicates the purplely path that i walk through...
that i purplely live in secret but yet known by others...
purplely breathe and heart-beating...
time passing noticed on the purple watch.....
like "purple snow falling on the desert"
purplely mysterious, special , yet sad and hurting...
live the life to the fullest with the purple's dream in heart.....
Happy Birthday~
happy birthday to me....
祝我生日快乐。。。。
생일 축하해!!!
Selamat Hari jadi!
**********************************
(Below i duno this is right or not... hahah... i use translator..)
私にハッピーバースデー~
joyeux anniversaire à moi!!! [French]
feliz aniversário para mim!!![Portuguese]
feliz cumpleaños a mí!!! [Spanish]
สุขสันต์วันเกิดให้ฉัน!!! [Thai]
maligaya kapanganakan sa akin!! [Filipino]
Χρόνια πολλά σε μένα [Greek]
मेरे जन्मदिन मुबारक हो !![Hindi]
This is how u can get wishes from almost all over the world.. heheh...
anyway happy birthday to me again....
앤지야, 앵일 축하해....[angie ya, happy birthday]
지금은 스물 둘 세[22 years old now ]
지금부터는 건강하게.....[from now on, stay healthy]
지금부터는 많은 많은 돈을 획득하다!!!![from now on, earn many many money]
그리고 부모님와 함께 한국에 여행을 가져....[and, get on a trip with my parent to south korea ...]
For those who have same birthday with me in this world.. Happy birthday to you.....
*******************************
old oledi...haiz...
22 years old...
the life of start struggle...
Today , since last night i havent lay down and sleep..
like that my birthday will b longer.. heheheh
this week i was very busy....
from tuesday, after meeting with lect...
a night out with my unimas bunch of best fren... thanks oh.. hehe
yesterday, a meeting for camp... then a supper at jalan song with camp fren...
then today.... the big day of mine....
the sweetest thing i want to do today is cook for my family...spending birthday with family surely is the best of all...행복해!!! ^^
then after dinner with family, out with my long live fren.... heheh... know them for more then 6 years.. some even 10 years... thanks in advance...
tomoro..... come unimas to pass up cd for fyp....
then night... dinner at 4point...
then fetch my sis at airport....
the next day ... taking driving law exam in the morning,
afternoon go training camp at ranchan for 2days 1 night.
until sunday back...
monday.. meeting with lect again.... hmm... quite busy leh...
i really busy this week...
그러지만, 기분이 좋아요.... i feel good and happy....
Thank to my family who always be at my side , as well as my long live and unimas fren..... thanks alot.... love u all.... hehhe...
Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!
祝我生日快乐。。。。
생일 축하해!!!
Selamat Hari jadi!
**********************************
(Below i duno this is right or not... hahah... i use translator..)
私にハッピーバースデー~
joyeux anniversaire à moi!!! [French]
feliz aniversário para mim!!![Portuguese]
feliz cumpleaños a mí!!! [Spanish]
สุขสันต์วันเกิดให้ฉัน!!! [Thai]
maligaya kapanganakan sa akin!! [Filipino]
Χρόνια πολλά σε μένα [Greek]
मेरे जन्मदिन मुबारक हो !![Hindi]
This is how u can get wishes from almost all over the world.. heheh...
anyway happy birthday to me again....
앤지야, 앵일 축하해....[angie ya, happy birthday]
지금은 스물 둘 세[22 years old now ]
지금부터는 건강하게.....[from now on, stay healthy]
지금부터는 많은 많은 돈을 획득하다!!!![from now on, earn many many money]
그리고 부모님와 함께 한국에 여행을 가져....[and, get on a trip with my parent to south korea ...]
For those who have same birthday with me in this world.. Happy birthday to you.....
*******************************
old oledi...haiz...
22 years old...
the life of start struggle...
Today , since last night i havent lay down and sleep..
like that my birthday will b longer.. heheheh
this week i was very busy....
from tuesday, after meeting with lect...
a night out with my unimas bunch of best fren... thanks oh.. hehe
yesterday, a meeting for camp... then a supper at jalan song with camp fren...
then today.... the big day of mine....
the sweetest thing i want to do today is cook for my family...spending birthday with family surely is the best of all...행복해!!! ^^
then after dinner with family, out with my long live fren.... heheh... know them for more then 6 years.. some even 10 years... thanks in advance...
tomoro..... come unimas to pass up cd for fyp....
then night... dinner at 4point...
then fetch my sis at airport....
the next day ... taking driving law exam in the morning,
afternoon go training camp at ranchan for 2days 1 night.
until sunday back...
monday.. meeting with lect again.... hmm... quite busy leh...
i really busy this week...
그러지만, 기분이 좋아요.... i feel good and happy....
Thank to my family who always be at my side , as well as my long live and unimas fren..... thanks alot.... love u all.... hehhe...
Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!
Friday, 8 May 2009
Stupid Steamboat shop....
that day, 060509, we, 10 brothers went to steamboat behind hornbill....
so shit .... all of us got food poisoning and fell sick the day after,
SK vomit nonstop , same with shia yok, meilu and weijan diarrhea... ah ui , me and yewli fell sick... i dunno what happen ... izit the shop's food not clean or our problem... haiz...
this definitely a "good memory" then.... dont go to that shop ever again....
hope they get well better...
take care guys....
so shit .... all of us got food poisoning and fell sick the day after,
SK vomit nonstop , same with shia yok, meilu and weijan diarrhea... ah ui , me and yewli fell sick... i dunno what happen ... izit the shop's food not clean or our problem... haiz...
this definitely a "good memory" then.... dont go to that shop ever again....
hope they get well better...
take care guys....
Thursday, 7 May 2009
Ten Brothers...
its been 3 years we knew each other... well , a lot of things happen... but then , im still feeling very honored and happy to know u all , as well as been in this 10 brother....
u guys are like my family.. more than friends.. really... i will owes miss the time we spend together and i love u all......
u guys are like my family.. more than friends.. really... i will owes miss the time we spend together and i love u all......
My dream trip ....South Korea
Suddenly feel like want to write something...
about the a place i want to go after 2 year...
i telling myself to go to South Korea, in 2 years time...
enough for me to save money and learn my korean to a perfect level...
so i can take my backpack and walk around Seoul, gwang ju, je ju, busan,
and many more...
once i can identify all the places, then i can bring my parent go as they no need
to follow travel agancy... wakakaka
backpack traveler is what i want to be... hahah.... my goodness...
what happen to me...
about the a place i want to go after 2 year...
i telling myself to go to South Korea, in 2 years time...
enough for me to save money and learn my korean to a perfect level...
so i can take my backpack and walk around Seoul, gwang ju, je ju, busan,
and many more...
once i can identify all the places, then i can bring my parent go as they no need
to follow travel agancy... wakakaka
backpack traveler is what i want to be... hahah.... my goodness...
what happen to me...
Wednesday, 6 May 2009
May 06, 2009
i dunno what should i give the title of this blog... so consider is my diary then...
today, is the last day of fyp presentation n exhibition...
well... finally end ... huh! not yet... have to change report..
Since is the last day.... everyone is taking photo with course mates...
like market in the fyp lab... totally mess....
that concluded these three years of hardwork...
the feeling is complicated....
should i consider it as happy or sad?
happy for everything is finished, and yet sad for it is the end of everything...
too complicated.....
know what im doing on these three days of exhibition??
the 1st day.. was my presentation...
yes... start from morning, worrying... worrying ...worrying...
until 1pm, i sent myself to the war field....
got shot couples of time... but im still alive...
when i got back to the normal feeling, lab technician started to close light and aircon.... that the end of 1st day...
2nd day... night before.. thinking what should i do in the lab.. so i downloaded entertainment show to be watch in lab.. hahah... me and my fren laugh out quite loud.. hahahah.... people are curious that wat happen to us.. hahahah....
the 3rd day.... watch the show and walking around taking photos.... hahha.....
wat to do.. really nothing to do...
today oso went out with 10 brothers....
happy to spend my time with u guys....
really....
im happy to be in the group...
after steamboat dinner... when for a movie...
dun when we got chance to go out like this again...
hopefully there will be another time...
i will really miss u guys...
my coursemates...from a stranger to best friends... u guys are the best!
i will really miss u guys alot....
i love u all.....
*********************************************************************************
anyway....
another thing that i feel down is... junsu was injured during rehearsal... on 030509, and insists to perform even on wheelchair on 040509.
i watched the fancam... can see that sadness in his face... he like to dance, and be active on stage, but now on a wheelchair , only thing can do is moving his hand and head...sad.... feel sad for him...sprained ankle, that was what doctor said to him and ask him to rest and do not perform for the TSC concert because hurt his leg badly and can barely walk ... but he still insist...although he didnt join all the dance performance, he insist to stand up , at least for the last song, "Bolero"
and why he have to say sorry for his fan? not his mistake.... hope that he get well soon...
today, is the last day of fyp presentation n exhibition...
well... finally end ... huh! not yet... have to change report..
Since is the last day.... everyone is taking photo with course mates...
like market in the fyp lab... totally mess....
that concluded these three years of hardwork...
the feeling is complicated....
should i consider it as happy or sad?
happy for everything is finished, and yet sad for it is the end of everything...
too complicated.....
know what im doing on these three days of exhibition??
the 1st day.. was my presentation...
yes... start from morning, worrying... worrying ...worrying...
until 1pm, i sent myself to the war field....
got shot couples of time... but im still alive...
when i got back to the normal feeling, lab technician started to close light and aircon.... that the end of 1st day...
2nd day... night before.. thinking what should i do in the lab.. so i downloaded entertainment show to be watch in lab.. hahah... me and my fren laugh out quite loud.. hahahah.... people are curious that wat happen to us.. hahahah....
the 3rd day.... watch the show and walking around taking photos.... hahha.....
wat to do.. really nothing to do...
today oso went out with 10 brothers....
happy to spend my time with u guys....
really....
im happy to be in the group...
after steamboat dinner... when for a movie...
dun when we got chance to go out like this again...
hopefully there will be another time...
i will really miss u guys...
my coursemates...from a stranger to best friends... u guys are the best!
i will really miss u guys alot....
i love u all.....
*********************************************************************************
anyway....
another thing that i feel down is... junsu was injured during rehearsal... on 030509, and insists to perform even on wheelchair on 040509.
i watched the fancam... can see that sadness in his face... he like to dance, and be active on stage, but now on a wheelchair , only thing can do is moving his hand and head...sad.... feel sad for him...sprained ankle, that was what doctor said to him and ask him to rest and do not perform for the TSC concert because hurt his leg badly and can barely walk ... but he still insist...although he didnt join all the dance performance, he insist to stand up , at least for the last song, "Bolero"
and why he have to say sorry for his fan? not his mistake.... hope that he get well soon...
Saturday, 25 April 2009
27 April is tomorrow....
yes, is tomorrow.... wow....
cant believe will finish soon....
and of course... these two days are too busy....
hate these feeling...
but be strong to face it... (even though have to face no matter how..)
after tuesday.. everyday will be a happy day...
fairy tale..?
wakakakka
i dunno whether i can step into hall by the middle of august
with my coursemate or not...
*cross finger* hopefully can graduate...^^
cant believe will finish soon....
and of course... these two days are too busy....
hate these feeling...
but be strong to face it... (even though have to face no matter how..)
after tuesday.. everyday will be a happy day...
fairy tale..?
wakakakka
i dunno whether i can step into hall by the middle of august
with my coursemate or not...
*cross finger* hopefully can graduate...^^
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
A cute love story.... by Tan Hong Ming ^^
remember the 50th National's day , and Petronas got a commercial like this??
My papa love this very much... everytimes he watch , he will like "kekeke..." laughing there.... i believe he want to watch it again.
My papa love this very much... everytimes he watch , he will like "kekeke..." laughing there.... i believe he want to watch it again.
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